10.6-10.10 治疗心病的原则 Principles of Curing Mental Illness

目录 Catalog：10.6 治疗心病的原则 Principles of Curing Mental Illness；10.7 宿命智 Fate Intelligence；10.8 神的外貌 Godly Appearances；10.9 三位一体 Godly Trinity；10.10 灵魂转世的本质 Nature of Reincarnation

 

10.6 治疗心理疾病的原则 Principles of Curing Mental Illness

我的家庭医生大卫博士，台湾人，跟踪着我的病情发展。约在2013年，他对我说： “我虽然不是精神病专业的，但我喜欢精神病学，现在我也常看他们的论文，跟随着精神病研究的发展。我觉得我有资格对你的病给你一个总的说法。”

大卫博士说： “我都听得很清楚，你的病的治疗办法就是：你回国，找着你的仇家，和解，把那些陈芝麻、烂谷子的事能解决多少，就解决多少。你那些事，如果发生在北美，人家那些精神科的医生，一听，如果认为是那么回事。他们就帮你找要找的人，撮合你们见面和谈。你这点儿事儿，他们很快就能办来。他们北美有一个系统，可好了。咱说这个没用，再好也用不上，因为你的事发生在中国，就只能靠你自己了。”

My family doctor, Dr. David, a Taiwanese, followed my disease progression. In 2013, he told me, “Although I am not a psychiatrist, I like psychiatry. Now I often read their papers and follow the development of psychiatric research. I think I am qualified to give you a general statement about your disease.”

Dr. David said, "I heard it all very clearly. The treatment for your illness is: go back to China, find your enemies, reconcile with them, and resolve as many of those old issues as you can. If your issues happened in North America, once the psychiatrists there heard about it and thought it was the case, they would help you find the people you were looking for and bring you together for a meeting and a talk. They can do your job very quickly. They have a great system in North America. We say it's useless, no matter how good it is, because your issues happened in China, so you can only rely on yourself."

大卫博士继续说：“剩下来的事，就是走一步，看一步；就是对付。精神病能引起很多别的病；你的未来不可预料，所以这是最佳方案。什么意思？我给你举例说。你现在的胃肠不好。胃肠是最能体现情感的器官。你过去有那样的情感经历，你的胃肠有现在的表现，不奇怪，不说是必然的，也可以说是精神病的伴生病。对付的办法，你现在多喝水。喝水可真是个好办法！水多，就把那些有刺激性的胃肠分泌物冲淡了，减小了刺激性分泌物的腐蚀性。如果你喝够了，不想多喝水了，咱就全面检查，找出是哪一种刺激物让你疼得受不了。配药，像是酸碱综合似的，用药把那种有刺激的分泌物的刺激性去除掉。等到你吃药吃够了，不想吃药了，咱就动手术，用刀把那个坏器官割掉。你得明白：现在的医疗水平，药物不能使坏器官变好。”

我听了之后感到绝望！即便是动手术把我的肚子都挖空了，也解决不了我与刘健君以及她父亲的恩怨情仇。

Dr. David continued, "The rest is to take one step at a time and see what happens. Mental illness can cause many other diseases. Your future is unpredictable, so this is the best option. What does it mean? Let me give you an example. Your stomach and intestines are not in good condition now. The stomach and intestines are the organs that best reflect emotions. You had such emotional experiences in the past, and your stomach and intestines have the current performance. It is not surprising. It is not inevitable, but it can be said to be a comorbidity of mental illness. The way to deal with it is to drink more water now. Drinking water is really a good way! More water can dilute those irritating gastrointestinal secretions and reduce the corrosiveness of irritating secretions. If you have drunk enough and don't want to drink more water, we will have a comprehensive examination to find out which irritant is causing you unbearable pain. Prescription, like acid-base synthesis, uses medicine to remove the irritation of the irritating secretions. When you have taken enough medicine and don't want to take medicine anymore, we will perform surgery and use a knife to cut off the bad organ. You have to understand with the current medical level, medicine cannot make bad organs better."

I felt despair after hearing that! Even if I had surgery to dig my belly empty, it wouldn't solve my Gratitude Resentment Love and Hatred against Eve Liu and her father.

10.6-2治疗心理疾病的原则 Principles of Curing Mental Illness

在2014年，我写完了《卢岩的回忆录》后，确立了治疗精神病的三条原则。

1. 我的病要从过去54年，现在和未来综合考虑，因为无意识和前意识没有前后顺序性和时间性，还因为无意识的无覆性和异熟性（参见第11.4.5节《识蕴》和 第11.6.1节《异熟果》）。

2. 心的本质是事；心病也叫恩怨情仇病。其本质是不正当的人际和社会关系，治疗就是修补人际或社会关系。无意识只处理现量（参见11.4.5节《八识与三量的关系》），就是刘健君说的， “人不见面，病治不好” （参见7.5节） 的原因。所以我要找到刘健君，和她面对面地公平解决我，她，和她爸爸三人之间的恩怨情仇。

3. 当痛苦的经历有了意义，痛苦就消失了。这是现代心理学的理论；古人也是这么认为的，即思想和感情跟着意义走。根据这一原理，我要写好此《灵魂转世的实验报告》，与众生共享刘团长，刘健君和我卢岩，我们三人对古代《桃花劫》（参见2.1节）的研究成果，流传后世，让刘团长死得其所，千古流芳。

In 2014, after I wrote “Luyan’s Memoirs”, I established three principles for treating mental illness.

 First, my illness needs to be considered comprehensively from the perspective of the past 54 years, the present and the future, because the unconscious and the preconscious have no sequence and time, also because of the non-coverable nature and mutant nature of unconsciousness (see Section 11.4.5, "Sense Node" and Section 11.6.1, "Mutant Fruit").

Second, the essence of the heart (i.e. mind) is affair; mental illness is also called “gratitude resentment love and hatred illness”. Its essence is improper interpersonal and social relationships and treatment is to repair interpersonal or social relationships. The unconscious only deals with “Present Quantities” (see Section 11.4.5 "The Relationship between Eight Consciousnesses and Three Quantities"), which is why Eve Liu said, "If people don't meet, the disease can't be cured" (see Section 7.5). So, I will find Eve Liu and face to face with her to fairly resolve the “gratitude resentment love and hatred disputes” between me, her, and her father.

Third, when painful experiences have significances, the pain disappears. This is the theory of modern psychology; the ancients also thought so, that is, thoughts and feelings follow meanings. According to this principle, I will write this “Reincarnation Experimental Report” to commonwealth with all sentient beings the research results of the ancient story “Peach Flower Catastrophe” (see section 2.1) by the three of us, Troupe Leader Liu, Eve Liu, and me, Adam Luyan, to pass it on to the future generations, so that Troupe Leader Liu's sacrifice will be well deserved and will be honored for eternity.

10.6-3阻碍精神病治疗的因素Impediment to Treat Mental Disorder

这个前女朋友（参见8.7节《出故事的人》）给我的两条关于精神病治疗的忠告是正确的。第一，不要相信医院的精神病医生，85-95%的精神病医生不懂精神病。第二，自己买书看，自己治疗。“85-95%的精神病医生不懂精神病” 这个说法，我小时候，梁伯姨父也对我说过多次。我在查找精神病治疗方法的时候发现，心理学书中只要说到精神病的治疗，就会推荐我前一小节所说的治疗原则。

我在治疗自己的心理疾病的过程中，最困难的就是全面推翻《美国精神病手册》（DSM-5）。《美国精神病手册》是美国数千精神病专家的集体作品，怎么错了呢！？《手册》是基于对数千精神病医生诊断和治疗措施的统计而制定的标准和给出建议，而不是基于心理学原理和临床治疗效果而给出建议。他们怎么可能不根据治疗措施产生的效果而决定治疗措施是否正确呢！？因为根据他们给出的治疗措施，找不到一例满意的治疗效果。他们服务于歌利王，不服务于精神病人。

The two clauses of advice this ex-girlfriend (see Section 8.7, "The Person Who Produces Stories") gave me about mental illness treatment are correct. First, do not trust the psychiatrists in the hospital; 85-95% of psychiatrists do not understand mental illness. Second, buy books and treat yourself. "85-95% of psychiatrists do not understand mental illness" was something my Uncle Liang told me many times when I was a child. When I was looking for treatment methods for mental illness, I found that whenever psychology books talked about the treatment of mental illness, they would recommend the treatment principles I mentioned in the previous section.

The most difficult part of my treatment of my mental illness was to completely overturn the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5). The DSM-5 is the collective work of thousands of American psychiatrists. How could it be wrong? The DSM-5 is based on the statistics of the diagnosis and treatment measures of thousands of psychiatrists, rather than the psychological principles and clinical treatment effects. How could they not decide whether the treatment measures are correct based on the effects they produce? Because there is no satisfactory treatment effect based on their treatment measures. They serve Song-Profit Kings, not the mentally ill.

 

10.7 宿命智 Fate Intelligence

2014年夏，由于作土建工作让我触景生情，对我的刺激太大，我决定放弃建筑职业，就到一家华人饭店做送餐的工作了。父母兄妹看了我的回忆录后，不相信，人怎么能回忆起那么小时候的事！他们认为我混淆了幻想经历和真实的经历。

我意识到了，我回忆出了三岁前的事，证明了宿命通有可能存在；但导致宿命通的宿命智是什么？可靠吗？我百思不得其解。

In the summer of 2014, because the civil engineering work made me feel emotional, it was too stimulating for me, so I decided to give up the construction career and work as a waiter in a Chinese restaurant. After reading my memoirs, my parents and siblings didn't believe it. How could a person recall things from such a young age! They thought I confused my fantasy experiences with real experiences.

I realized that I could recall things that happened before I was three years old, proving that “Fate Through” is possible. But what is the fate-intelligence that leads to fate-through? Is it reliable? I was puzzled.

10.7-2 宿命智 Fate Intelligence

2016年春，我在复读自己的回忆录时发现，1991年梁伯姨父给我留遗嘱时（参见4.10节），他是表演给我看的，还说我过目不忘。我意识到了刘团长知道我是个图像思维型的人，查找了现代心理学图像思维型人的特质。

现代的心理学讲，新生儿在语言能力形成之前，都是图像思维模式，比如理解妈妈的笑脸，动作和情绪等。渐渐地，伴随着语言的行成，思维模式、记忆模式、记忆提取模式都发生了改变。一般来说，人三岁后都是用语言进行基本思维的，但还是可以分成三种类型：（1）图像思维型，人群中占30%；（2）文字思维型，人群中占25%；（3）前两种的混合型，人群中占45%。动感（Kinesthetic）思维型人和其它的思维方式在人群中的占比少于1%。

In the spring of 2016, I was re-reading my memoirs and realized that when Aunt Cui Fenglong left me a will in 1991 (see section 4.10), he was acting it out for me and said that I could “not forget passing through my eyes”. I realized that Troupe Leader Liu knew that I am an image-thinker, looking up the modern psychological image-thinker trait.

According to modern psychology, before newborns develop language skills, they use image thinking, such as understanding their mother's smile, movements, and emotions. Gradually, as language is formed, thinking patterns, memory patterns, and memory retrieval patterns all change. People use language for basic thinking after the age of three, but they can still be divided into three types: (1) image thinking type, accounting for 30% of the population; (2) text thinking type, accounting for 25% of the population; (3) a mixture of the first two types, accounting for 45% of the population. Kinesthetic thinking type and other thinking styles account for less than 1% of the population.

图像思维型人的思维更依赖于视觉。由于图像记忆节省记忆体，可以说这种人有用不完的记忆体，可以记忆从出生到70岁所经历的全部事。记忆的提取模式简单，提取的范围也宽。迁徙动物的领头者和洄游的鱼都是图像思维模式。

文字思维型的人更依赖于听觉。由于这种记忆的存储方式和记忆的提取方式复杂，所以相对于图像思维型人来说，长期记忆的有效时间短，记忆被提取的范围也小。

我得出了结论，图像思维模式是宿命智的潜能。但这种宿命智的潜能有多大程度，在真实生活中是否可以信赖？我的疑问是，刘团长这实验成功的概率是多少？他是否在用他自己和我的生命开玩笑！？

People with image thinking are more dependent on vision. Since image memory saves memory, it can be said that such people have endless memory and can remember everything they have experienced from birth to 70 years old. The memory retrieval mode is simple, and the range of retrieval is wide. The leader of migrating animals and migratory fish are both images thinking models.

People with text-based thinking are more dependent on hearing. Because the storage and retrieval methods of this type of memory are complex, the effective time of long-term memory is shorter, and the range of memory retrieval is smaller than that of people with image-based thinking.

I concluded that the image thinking mode is the potential of Fate Intelligence. But how big is the potential of this Fate Intelligence, and can it be trusted in real life? My question is, what is the probability of success of Troupe Leader Liu's experiment? Is he kidding himself and my life!?

10.7-3 宿命是性格使然 Fate is Formed from Personality

我回忆起了我9岁时，我奶奶曾经对我做过的事。一次奶奶看着我，突然嚎叫：“这孩子（在说我）这么老实，将来可怎么活！” 她和我大伯因此吵起来了。大伯走后，奶奶呸的一声，吓得我一跳，她叨咕：“这点儿事都看不明白，还自认为聪明呢！” 对我说：“你的命运，奶奶看得清清楚楚！是这么回事，你给我记住了！”

奶奶说：“你胆子小，还小心眼儿，挨欺负了，不敢和人家打架。可你还记着，自己想起来就生气。时间长了，你就病了。你病了，就死了也没什么！可你这种人，临死前还能明白过来：我是受谁谁的欺负，所以我病了，我是被欺负死的！你想报仇，可你要死了，活不成了，怎么报仇！像你这种人，就恨自己，就折磨自己。你能用刀割自己的肉，戳瞎自己的眼睛！那是最可怕的死法，你的命运就是这样！这种命自古就有，老辈的人们都看得好好的。这点道理你大爷都看不明白！”

I recalled what my grandmother did to me when I was 9 years old. One time, my grandmother looked at me and suddenly howled: "This child (talking about me) is so honest, how will he live in the future!" She and my uncle quarreled about this. After my uncle left, my grandmother made a sound of "Pooh", which scared me. She muttered: "You can't understand such a small thing, but you still think you are smart!" She said to me: "Your fate is clearly seen by your grandmother! This is what happened, you remember it!"

Grandma said: "You are timid and narrow-minded. You dare not fight with others when you are bullied. But you still remember it and get angry when you think about it. After a long time, you will get sick. If you are sick, it doesn't matter if you die! But people like you can understand before they die: I was bullied by someone, so I got sick, I was bullied to death! You want revenge, but you are going to die, you can't live anymore, how can you take revenge! People like you hate yourself and torture yourself. You can cut your own flesh with a knife and poke out your own eyes! That is the most terrible way to die, and this is your fate! This kind of fate has existed since ancient times, and the older generation see it clearly. Your uncle can't understand this little theory!"

奶奶说：“你的命有个解法，奶奶告诉你，‘只要有一口气在，你别折磨自己，你去找仇人报仇’。你病了，你就是爬，也要爬到仇人家，和他打架；要死，死在仇人家里。你命运的解法就是坚持报仇；打，你就能活；放弃了报仇，你就死了。”

奶奶说：“老辈子人说，这人那，就没谁想整死谁。你坚持找仇人报仇；人家就明白了，就让你出气了。你也得明白，最终还是要和解。矛盾被公平地解决了，你的病就好了。这就是你命运的解法。如果你知道了，别让人家欺负着，你就不生病了，那不更好么！”

Grandma said, "There is a solution to your fate. Grandma tells you, 'As long as you have a breath left, don't torture yourself, go find your enemy and take revenge.' If you are sick, you must crawl to your enemy's house and fight him; if you want to die, die in your enemy's house. The solution to your fate is to insist on revenge; if you fight, you will live, if you give up revenge, you will die."

Grandma said, "The old people said that no one wants to kill anyone. You insist on seeking revenge on your enemies; they will understand and let you vent your anger. You also must understand that you still must reconcile in the end. The conflict is resolved fairly, and your illness will be cured. This is the solution to your fate. If you know this, don't let others bully you, and you won't get sick. Isn't that better!"

2015年，我想起了奶奶说的这话，她说对了，我的病就是让刘健君父女俩给欺负了，形成的。那时，奶奶的话鼓励着我，坚持找刘健君讨回公道。那我奶奶是怎么看出我的命运的呢？

奶奶说：“你的命运就是这样，都是我的错！说起来，你爸去和你妈相亲，还是我带他去的呢。到你姥姥家的那个大岗子，一进门，我就看出来了：一家子的红脸关公。回来的路上，我对你爸说：凤玲（我妈）这孩子模样儿不丑，能说会笑，还是个老实人。你爸爸就信我了。你说当时，我怎么就没想想：父母都是老实人，生的孩子可怎么活！”

In 2015, I remembered what my grandmother said. She was right. My illness was caused by the bullying of Troupe Leader Liu and his daughter. At that time, my grandmother's words encouraged me to insist on seeking justice from Eve Liu. So how did my grandmother see my fate?

Grandma said, "Your fate is like this. It's all my fault! To be honest, I was the one who took your dad to the blind date with your mom. When we got to your grandma's house, I saw it as soon as I walked in: a family of red-faced Guan Gongs. On the way back, I said to your dad: Fengling (my mom) is not ugly, she can talk and laugh and is an honest person. Your dad believed me. You know, at that time, why didn't I think ‘both parents are honest people, how can their child live!’"

 

10.8 神的外貌 Godly Appearances

前文述说了图像记忆和图像思维模式是宿命通的潜在资质，我在精神病中情绪剧烈迅速变化激发出了我三岁以前的记忆，使我获得了上帝七种神通之一的宿命通。而且我还看到了一本现代心理学书中明确指出，正常人能回忆出三岁之前事的还没发现。刘团长怎么知道我一定会疯？我疯病的起因是什么？现代精神病学还不知道精神病的起因。

我在一次复读第13.1.1节《地狱趣》，注意到了五逆罪是对心理机制的反操作，但我对 “出身神身血即堕地狱”一条不理解。我忽然想起了小时候梁伯姨父给我讲过的《精神病入门病例》（参见4.8节）：甲人在路上，看见对面走来一个人，脸上流着血，匆匆忙忙地从集市上离开。当时，甲人有点儿吃惊，但没在意。走过去后，他忽然想：“哎呀！刚才那个人好像认识。” 甲人却想不起来那人是谁，或者在哪儿见过。过了几天，甲人听说那个脸上流血的人死了，就感觉不舒服。几天后，甲人病了。

The previous articles described image memory and image thinking patterns are potential qualifications for “fate through” (see section 10.5). The rapid and drastic changes in my emotions during my mental illness triggered my memories before the age of three, which enabled me to obtain the “fate through”, one of the seven divine powers of God. Moreover, I also saw a modern psychology book clearly stating that normal people who can recall affairs before the age of three have not yet been found. How did Troupe Leader Liu know that I would go crazy? What is the cause of my psychosis? Modern psychiatry does not know the cause of mental illness yet.

Once, I was rereading Section 13.1.1 "Hell Interest" and noticed that the “Five Crimes of Anti” are the reverse operations of the psychological mechanism, but I didn't understand the clause “Bleeding God’s body, instantly fall into hell”. I suddenly remembered that Uncle Liangtold me the story of "Introductory Case to Mental Illness” (see section 4.8). On the way, Man A saw a man walking on the opposite side, with blood on his face, hurrying away from the market. At that time, Man A had a small shock, but he didn't care. When he walked over, suddenly thought, "Oh! That person seems to know him." But “Man A” couldn't remember who he was, or where he had seen him. A few days later, when Man A heard that the man with blood on his face had died, he felt unwell. A few days later, Man A fell ill.

我意识到了这就是“出神身血即堕地狱”的案例。那个脸上流血的人具有神的外貌，而神的外貌是大种。大种是人脑思维机制中的默认模特（亦作种子），被人脑用来派生制造其它的同类事物。当大种有变化时，依其所造的一切都随之而变。也就是说甲人看见了“神的脸上流着血”，就更改了甲人思维机制中的人的大种（即人的默认模特），从而使得甲人思想中的许多人脸上流血了，即患了神经错乱（亦作堕入了地狱）。

I realized that this is a case of “Bleeding God’s body, instantly fall into hell”. The man with the bleeding face had the appearance of God, and the appearance of God is the “big seed”. The “big seed” is the default model (also known as seed) in the human brain's thinking mechanism, which is used by the human brain to derive and create other similar things. When the “big seed” changes, everything created by it changes accordingly. In other words, when Person A saw "God's face bleeding", the “big seed” of people in Person A's thinking mechanism (that is, the default model of people) was changed, so that many people in Person A's mind had bleeding faces, that is, Person A suffered from mental disorders (also known as falling into hell).

10.8-2 什么是思维机制中的默认模特或种子？What is the Default Model or Seed in Mind Mechanism?

人脑思维在处理客观事物的过程中，总是自主地简化客观对象，抽取各类默认模特（佛教中称作种子），如人、蝴蝶、树等。然后以此默认模特来认知其它同类个体。比如女人，我们看见个体女人会描述大眼睛，高鼻梁，高个子，有点儿瘦等。这些描述都是人脑通过把对方和自己思维机制里的默认女人模特进行比较而采集出的特征，以此默认女人模特（或说女人种，女神）来认知对向，乃至所有的女人。

When dealing with objective things, the human brain always simplifies the objective objects autonomously and extracts various default models (called seeds in Buddhism), such as man, butterfly, tree, etc. Then, it uses this default model to recognize other individuals of the same kind. For example, when we see a woman, we may describe her as having big eyes, a high nose bridge, tall stature, and a little thin. These descriptions are all features collected by the human brain by comparing the other party with the default female model (or saying seed woman, goddess) in its own thinking mechanism, and mind uses this default woman model to recognize the other party, or even all women.

此中，默认的女人模特就是女人的定义，亦作女神。人脑通过女神这个默认模特来建立其它的女人，也就是说所有的个体女人都是从女神派生出来的，即女神是女人的种子, 能生出其它女人。

现实生活中就有和男神女神长的类似的人，就可能会有与神类似的性质。现代心理学描述这种人的长相为 “可以藏在人群里的人” ，比如，他是这种长相，你跟他不熟。他在前面跑，你在后面追他。路边有几个人，他转身往那几个人中一站，你就找不着他了。

Here, the default model of woman is the definition of woman, also known as goddess. The human brain uses the default model of goddess to establish other women, that is, all individual women are derived from goddess, that is, goddess is the seed of woman, which can give birth to other women. Similarly, we can conclude that the male god is the seed of man, from which all similar men can be derived; the snake god is the seed of snake, from which other snakes can be derived; the tree god is the seed of tree, from which many trees can be produced, and so on.

In real life, there are people who look like god and goddess, so they may have similar qualities to god. Modern psychology describes the appearance of such people as "people who can hide in the crowd". For example, he looks like God, and you are not familiar with him. He runs in front of you, and you chase him from behind. There are a few people on the side of the road, and he turns around and stands among them, then you can't find him.

前段文字表明，神的外貌，没有特征，是无记性的。你看见他了，知道他是个男人，有些面熟；可离开他后，很快你就想不起来他的长相了。华人的佛经里是这样描述女神的：不高不矮，不胖不瘦，不黑不白，眼睛不大不小，鼻梁不高不低，体温冬暖夏凉，不笑不说话，欲说话先笑。家里来客人了，出迎在先，进屋在后；进屋之后，后坐先起。

为什么女神总是笑！？幸福欢乐的玉女是女神，悲伤哭泣的玉女是殃。另外，女神的外貌会因为民族，地域和历史时期的不同而有差异。读者可以想象，华人女神的外貌和阿拉伯女神会有差别。

The previous paragraph shows that God's appearance is featureless and immemorial. You see him and know he is a man and looks familiar; but after you leave him, you soon can't remember what he looks like. Chinese Buddhist scriptures describe the goddess like this: neither tall nor short, neither fat nor thin, neither black nor white, eyes neither big nor small, nose bridge neither high nor low, body temperature warm in winter and cool in summer, doesn’t laugh doesn’t speak, laughs first before she speaks. When a guest comes, she greets at front and enters the house behind; after entering the room, sits down later and stands up the first.

Why does Goddess always laugh!? A happy or joyful Jade Girl (i.e. Goddess, Eve) is a goddess, and a sad or weeping Jade Girl is a Misfortune. In addition, the appearances of goddesses may vary according to ethnicities, regions, and historical periods. Readers can imagine that the appearance of Chinese goddess would be different from that of Arabian goddess.

10.8-3 案例 Case

我回忆起了小时候，妈妈给我讲的稀罕事。她去我二姨家回来，非常兴奋，说：“我遇见你二姨家小二，你二哥了，我没认出来他。他说话，我听到他的声音，才认出他来了，吓了一跳！他瘦了体重的三分之一，都脱相了！”

我惊讶地问：“哎呀！他得啥病了？现在怎么样了？”

妈妈回答：“说了你也不信！他遭殃了！”

I recalled the rare affair my mother told me when I was a child. She came back from my second aunt's house and was very excited. She said, "I met your second aunt's Little Second, your second brother. I didn't recognize him. When he spoke and I heard his voice, I and was shocked, recognized him. He lost one-third of his body weight and looked completely different!"

I asked in surprise: "Oh my! What's wrong with him? How is he now?"

My mother replied: "You wouldn't believe it even if I told you! He encountered a Misfortune!"

我听不懂妈妈在说什么呢！妈妈解释说：“刚开始我也不信，但看他瘦成了那样儿！不信也不行啊！这是你二哥他自己说的。他去上班的路上，常常在一个老年人聚集的地方看见一个老头儿，面熟，像是认识似的，笑眯眯的。他觉得那老头儿挺好，和蔼可亲，就偶尔和他打个招呼，说句话。一天，他又路过那儿，那老头儿死了，那家在发丧呢。你二哥他没参加过丧礼，好奇，就进去看了看。回来两天后，就病了，吃不下饭，睡不着觉，瘦掉了体重的三分之一。沈阳、鞍山的大医院他都去过了，做了很多检查。结果都是什么病也没有；谁也解释不了他是怎么了。他就只能回家等死了。没办法了，你二姨就去了一个大神家。那个大神是个女的。你二姨才说几句，人家就说了：他遭殃了！对人家无礼了；你得这么办。大神让你二哥给人家赔礼道歉去！那个大神说，人呼吸到最后一口气的时候是殃。”

I didn't understand what my mother was saying! My mother explained, "I didn't believe it at first, but when I saw how thin he was, I couldn't help but believe it! This is what your second brother said himself. On his way to work, he often saw an old man in a place where elderly people gathered. He looked familiar and smiled as if he knew him. He thought the old man was very nice and amiable, so he would occasionally say hello to him and talk to him. One day, he passed by there again, and the old man had died, and the family was holding a funeral. Your second brother had never attended a funeral, so he was curious and went in to look. Two days after he came back, he fell ill. He couldn't eat and sleep, lost one-third of his body weight. He went to major hospitals in Shenyang and Anshan and underwent many tests. The results showed that he had no disease; no one could explain what happened to him. He could only go home and wait to die. There was no other way, so your second aunt went to a big god's house. The big god is a woman. Your second aunt had just said a few words, and the big goddess said: He encountered a Misfortune! He was rude to it; you must do this. The big goddess asked your second brother to apologize to the old man! The big goddess said that when a man takes his last breath, it is a Misfortune. "

妈妈说：“好歹！这也是有了个希望。他们就按照大神说的买了猪头和水果等东西，到那老头儿的坟前上供。按照大神的说法，磕头道歉后，你二哥要绕着坟走三圈，一边走，一边叨咕着给人家道歉。那时候，你二哥都走不动了。俩人搀着他，走了三圈。你二哥他自己说的，走到第三圈的时候，他感觉出了一身汗。三圈走完了，他的病就好了70%。到家了，病就好了，前后不到两个小时，跟正常人一样了。当然，他还是那么瘦。”

Mom said, "At least there is hope. They bought pig head, fruits and other things as the goddess said, and went to commonwealth to the old man's grave. According to the goddess’ sayings, after kowtowed and apologized, your second brother had to walk around the grave three rounds, mumbling apologies as he walked. At that time, your second brother couldn't walk anymore. Two people supported him and walked three rounds. Your second brother said that when he walked the third rounds, he felt sweaty. After walking three rounds, his illness was 70% cured. When he got home, his illness was cured. It took less than two hours, and he was the same as a normal person. Of course, he was still so thin."

10.8-4 我的病因 The Cause of My Illness

我的精神病的起因是和女神刘健君吵架，把女神气哭了；也就是我冒犯了女神，犯了忤逆罪。所以我当时就病了（参见7.3节《相亲》）。

The cause of my mental illness was that I had a quarrel with Goddess Eve Liu, which made her cry; that is, I offended Goddess and committed the “Crime of Anti” (see section 13.1.1). So, I became ill at that time (see Section 7.3 "Blind Date").

 

10.9 上帝的三和合 Godly Trinity

传说，雷音在他的色究竟天琉璃宫中用金刚萨陲击碎了人的灵魂之石，设计出了睚眦（金童）和磨牙（玉女）（如图10.9-1所示；参见15.3节《人天果》）。我还没找到刘健君，没看过雷音的设计。为了继续本书的创作，我自己设计了一对儿金童和玉女的模型。

插图10.9-1-1显示了雷音的设计。图中的六个凸起代表眼识、耳识、鼻识、舌识、身识、和意识。中间的主体部分代表人的灵魂之石，被雷音砸成了三块。左边的部分代表觉（梵语佛），代表人能够直接感知的事物，代表无意识的污染部分，佛教中称作阿赖耶识，英语中称作亚当识。雷音根据这部分的特质设计出了山羊睚眦（即金童）。此部分是业的积聚体，故定义为黑色。

Legend has it that Thor designed Tanngnjóstr (Gold Boy) and Tanngrisnir (Jade Girl; shown in Fig. 10.9-1; cf. section 15.3) by shattering the stone of the human soul with his “philosopher-stone sentient hammer” in his Diamond Palace at “Color Finalization Sky”. I have yet to find Eve Liu and see Thor's design. To continue with the book, I have designed my own model of the pair of Gold Boy and Jade Girl.

Illustration 10.9-1-1 shows the Thor’s design. The six projections in the figure represent eye-sense, ear-sense, nose-sense, tongue-sense, body-sense, and intent-sense (i.e., consciousness). The main part in the center represents the stone of the human soul, smashed into three pieces by Thor. The part on the left represents Perception (Buddha in Pali), which represents what a person can perceive directly, represents the contaminated part of the unconscious, known as the Alaya in Buddhism and the Adam-sense in English. Thor designed the goat Tanngnjóstr (aka. gold boy) based on the traits of this part. This part is the accumulation of karma and is therefore defined as black.

图1右边代表前意识，佛教中称作末娜识，英语中称作夏娃识。因为前意识能够润色善恶美丑，赋予万物生命和意义，所以在佛教中被称作众生，欧洲人称作众生之母。雷音根据夏娃识的特质设计出了山羊磨牙（即玉女），并且定义为绿色。

图1中亚当识和夏娃识之间的空隙代表无意识的纯净部分。从这部分的特性，雷音设计出了神父，也就是雷音他自己。图1中亚当识和夏娃识的 “相望” 是 “集起（参见14.1节）” 的因缘。两只山羊（即睚眦和磨牙）的相望是金童和玉女的姻缘。金童义为要造出金童，需要花费和他体重相同的黄金。玉女义为要造出玉女，要花费和她体重相同的玉石。

The right side of Figure 1 represents pre-consciousness, which is called Mana-sense in Buddhism and Eve-sense in English. Because the pre-consciousness can embellish good, evil, beauty and ugliness, and give life and meaning to all things, it is known as all sentients in Buddhism, and the Europeans call it the mother of all living beings. Thor designed the goat Tanngrisnir (aka. Jade Girl) based on the traits of Eve-sense and defined it as green.

Figure 1 The gap between Adam-sense and Eve-sense represents the immaculate part of the unconscious. From the characterization of this part, Thor designed the Godfather, Thor himself. The “looking at each other” of Adam-sense and Eve-sense in Figure 1 is the reason-factor of “Aggregate Arousal” (cf. v. 14.1). The look of the two goats (i.e., Tanngnjóstr and Tanngrisnir) is the cause of the marriage of the gold boy and the jade girl. The meaning of "gold boy" is that to create a gold boy, one needs to spend gold equal to his weight. The meaning of "jade girl" is that to create a jade girl, one needs to spend jade equal to her weight.

10.9-2 金童的特质 Gold Boy's Traits

本节接下来讨论雷音如何给亚当识和夏娃识穿上了人皮，使他们变成了男人和女人。金童的特质是由无意识污染部分（即亚当识）的特征转换变性而来。无意识自是自果。神识和亚当识是一位法。在神位上，金童是神的灵魂转世，亦作上帝之子，其本质是法尘、是身土，是觉，所以金童就是佛教所说的佛，释迦摩尼。佛陀是梵语，觉义，感知义。

The next part of this section discusses how Thor puts human skin on Adam-sense and Eve-sense, turning them into man and woman. The traits of the Gold Boy are transformed and denatured from the traits of the contaminated part of the unconscious (i.e., Adam-sense). Unconsciousness is its own fruit. God-sense and Adam-sense are one law. In the Godly position, Gold Boy is the reincarnation of God, also known as the son of God, whose essence is Juristic dust, body soil, and perception, so Gold Boy is what Buddhism calls Buddha, Shakyamuni. Buddha is a Pali word, means perception.

1. 无意识是人的记忆和习惯等的储存仓库，所以被选中作为金童的人应该是图像思维型人。如10.7节《宿命智》所说，这种思维模式的人可以记忆从出生到死亡的一切。金童的这种特质叫不漏智。不漏，是说教父从小到大一直对他做事，他都能记住，如器承水，不会遗漏、丢失。

2. 无意识在眼识、耳识、意识等中是最愚钝的。在金童一岁时，教父为他和玉女定了娃娃亲，并为他做肉眼通（解释参见第3章）作法。这作法使金童患了婴幼儿神经发育失调症，耽误了他的智力发展，成了个有智障（愚钝）的人。

1. Unconscious is a storage warehouse for human memories and habits, etc., so the chosen one as Gold Boy should be an image thinker. As stated in Section 10.7 of Fatal Intelligence, the kind of people can remember everything from birth to death. This trait of Gold Boy is called Non-leakage Intelligence in Buddhism. Non-leakage is saying that the godfather has been doing affairs to him since he was a child, he can remember all, like a vessel carrying water, it will not be missed or lost.

2. Unconsciousness is the dullest among eye-sense, ear-sense, and tongue-sense, etc... When Gold Boy was around one year old, the Godfather betrothed him to Jade Girl and performed the practice of “Felsh Eye Through” (see Chapter 3 for explanation) on him. This practice caused Gold Boy to suffer from children neurodevelopmental disorder, which delayed his intellectual development and made him a mentally retarded person, a dumb.

3. 金童有很强的内向性和神经质的特质。这种特质很像无意识，喜欢安静，反应直接。这种性格的人容易患神经病，这有利于神父造人的事业。另外，这种性格在逆境中会变成龙骨，支撑他在困境中成长。结合前面的所有特质，金童有很强的科学研究能力，悟性强。

4. 教父诱导金童从小练习禅定（即气功），所以他善于禅定，知天地、懂鬼神，有天眼通（参见第12章）。天眼通是选择候选人作为亚当的必要条件之一，否则他不能从地狱里爬上来，参悟教父对他的嘱托，完成宿命任务！

3. Gold Boy has strong introverted and neurotic traits. These traits are very similar to unconsciousness, liking quiet and reacting directly. People with these traits are prone to psychosis and are advantageous for the Godfather's career of creating real human. Additionally, these two traits turn into dragon bones in adversity, supporting him to grow in difficulties of adverse environments. Combining all the previous traits, Gold Boy has strong scientific research capability and strong senses of enlightenment.

4. The godfather induced Gold Boy to practice meditation (cf. chapter 12) since his childhood, so he is good at meditation, knows sky and earth, understands ghosts and gods, what Celestial Eye is. Celestial Eye is a necessary factor to be the chosen one, otherwise Gold Boy can’t climb up from hell (i.e., Psychosis), perceives Godfather's instructions to him, and complete the fateful mission!

10.9-3 玉女的特质 Jade Girl’s Traits

玉女具有多种特质与夏娃识的特征相匹配。夏娃识即前意识，是意处。处，相当于事故现场，比如舞台上聚光灯所照射的地方，事故发生的处所。前意识是在思想意识的功能上设立的，所以夏娃识是无形的。

1. 夏娃识是意处，是无形的，这由玉女具有女神的外貌来匹配。女神的外貌是无记性的（参见10.8节）。你看见她时，她是个女人；她离开了，你回忆不出她的外貌。

Jade Girl has a variety of qualities matching the characteristics of preconsciousness. Preconsciousness is Eve-sense, is the intentional place. The place is equivalent to the scenes of accidents, such as the place where the spotlight shines on the stage. Pre-consciousness is set up on the function of mind, so Eve-sense is intangible.

1. Eve-sense is “intent place”, is formless, which is matched by Jade Girl’s goddess appearance. The appearance of Goddess is unrememberable (cf. section 10.8). When she is in front of you, you see her is a woman; when she is gone, you cannot recall her appearance.

2. 玉女是文字思维型的人；这与增语触相匹配。前意识是意处，对语言的形成有促进作用，所以又被叫做增语触。插图10.9-3-2是墨西哥法典中的卡特丽，是三十多岁的玉女，古墨西哥人把她的思维模式描绘成了天线棒。图2中的飞鸟表示玉女可以不借助于图像形象而进行思考。中国佛教命名玉女为观音菩萨，如图4；观音二字就来源于她的语音（文字）思维模式。这种人在日常生活中思维清晰、伶牙俐齿，一般被认为是聪明人。他们的语言能力强，甚至能达到出口成章，过目成诵。玉女的强大的语言和逻辑能力，是她能完成神父赋予她的宿命任务，作为《天书》总编的天赋。如插图3是墨西哥的翠玉女神，是一位玉女，她头顶着《墨西哥法典》表示她视此书是自己的宿命任务。

2. Jade Girl is a word thinker, which matches the “Escalatory Language Feeler”. Pre-consciousness is intent place, has a function of promoting language formation, so it is also being called “Escalatory Language Feeler”. Illustration 10.9-3-2 is Tlaltecuhtli in Mexican Codex, a Jade Girl at her age of 30s, whose think pattern were depicted by the ancient Mexicans as an antenna rod. The flying bird in Figure 3 indicates that Jade Girl can think without the aid of pictorial images. Chinese Buddhism named Jade Girl the Goddess of View-Sound Bodhisattva, as in Figure 4; the word View-Sound is derived from her word thinking mind. Such people are generally considered intelligent as they think clearly and articulate in their daily lives. They have strong verbal skills, even to the point of being able to speak an article directly without draft and recite an article after reading once. Jade Girl's strong verbal and logical skills were the gift that enabled her to fulfill fate mission given to her by Godfather as the chief editor of Sky Book.  As illustrated in Illustration 3 is the Mexican goddess Chalchiuhtlicue, a Jade Girl, who holds the Mexican Codex over her head indicating that she views this book as her fateful mission.

3. 玉女有很强的觉悟和外向的特质，这两个特质与前意识相匹配。前意识又被称作意；意是企图，打算的意思。觉悟特质使玉女做事有计划，且能自律。另外，前意识活泼好动，故事里常用猴子来比喻它。玉女的外向型特质刚好于前意识的活跃性匹配。

3. Jade Girl has strong traits of conscientiousness and extroversion, both of which match the preconsciousness. Preconsciousness is also being called Intent that means plotting, planning. The conscientiousness trait makes Jade Girl to do affairs in a planned manner and with self-discipline. In addition, preconsciousness is active, and in the story, a monkey is often used as a metaphor for preconsciousness. Jade Girl's extroverted nature is a perfect match for the active nature of preconsciousness.

4. 神父从玉女小时候就开始教受训练她女戒（参见16.2节），玉女的觉悟特质使她更容易接受女戒。另外玉女的女神外貌，让人看不清楚，记不住她，这对她的社交生活不利，所以玉女更愿意修习女戒使自己引人注目；少女时代的夏娃就已经具有了 “五百威仪，十万八千魅力” 。女戒，即五百威仪十万八千魅力，亦作黄金甲，又名女人皮（参见16.2节）。玉女擅长女戒，使她具备了许多自然法知识，法眼睁开了。女戒和法眼让女神玉女具有了强大的法力；这是神父想要的，因为他要用玉女去创伤金童，送他下地狱。

总观金童和玉女的性格和才能特质，他们俩各是半个人，各有显著的优缺点，且刚好互补；合则两利，斗则俱伤。

4. Godfather began to teach and train Jade Girl the “Woman Precept” when she was a child, and her conscientious trait made it easier to accept. In addition, Jade Girl's goddess appearance made it difficult for people to see and remember her, which was detrimental to her social life, so Jade Girl preferred to practice Woman Precepts to make herself outstanding, therefore as a teenager Jade Girl already possessed “500 Majesties and 108,000 Charms”. The Woman Precepts are the 500 Majesties and 108,000 Charms, are also known as Golden Armor, Woman’s Skin, Invisibility Cloak (cf. section 16.2). Jade Girl excelled in Woman Precept, which equipped her with much knowledge of nature law, so her Juristic Eye was opened. Woman Precepts and Juristic Eye gave goddess Jade Girl great juristic powers; this is what the Godfather wanted because he was going to use Jade Girl to traumatize Gold Boy and send him to hell.

Looking at the characters and talents of Gold Boy and Jade Girl, each of them is half a human, each with significant strengths and weaknesses, and just complement each other; together they are good for each other, while fighting hurts them both.

 

10.10 灵魂转世的本质 The Nature of Reincarnation

本回忆录共十章，述说了作为刘团长医学实验对象的我，从一岁到五十岁的经历。从灵魂转世来说，心的本质是事，人的灵魂就是一辈子所经历的长篇故事，本书就是我的灵魂，是由一个个事件构成的。一个个事件就是一个个灵，也就是本回忆录中的一个个案例，古人称作灵，灵丹，和天珠。

插图10.10.1-1是纳瓦特象形文字灵丹。上面的羽毛代表灵，底下的圆球代表丹。人吃了灵丹后，灵丹就会慢慢地生长成为一个灵（如图2所示），成为人灵魂的一部分。图3是少女玉女；她的父母秘密地把灵丹夹杂在饭里给她吃。碗底的那红点就是一颗灵丹，代表奥林心（佛教中称作菩提心，参见16.0节）。当玉女成年后，那颗奥林心已经生长成了菩提树（如图4左所示），所以玉女就成为了众生之母翠玉女（如图4所示）。

This memoir consists of ten chapters that describe my experiences as a subject of medical experimentation by Troupe Leader Liu, from the age of one to the age of fifty. In terms of the reincarnation of the soul, the essence of the heart is affair, and the soul of a human being is a long story of what he or she has experienced in a lifetime, and this book is my soul, which is made up of one event after another. An event is a spirit, or a case in this memoir, which the ancients called a spirit, a Spiritual Catholicon, and a Sky Pearl.

Illustration 10.10.1-1 is the Nahuatl hieroglyph for the Spiritual Catholicon. The feathers on top represent spirits, and the ball on the bottom represents the Catholicon. When a person eats the Spiritual Catholicon, the Spiritual Catholicon will slowly grow into a spirit (as shown in Figure 2), becoming part of the person's soul. Figure 3 shows the young Jade Girl; her parents secretly mixed the Spiritual Catholicons into her rice for her to eat. The red dot at the bottom of the bowl is a Spiritual Catholicon, representing the Ollin Heart (called Bodhicitta in Buddhism, see Section 16.0). When Jade Girl grew up, the Ollin Heart had grown into a Bodhi tree (i.e., an enlightenment tree, as shown in Figure 4, left), so Jade Girl became Chalchiuhtlicue, the mother of all livings (as shown in Figure 4).

图5是少年的墨西哥（又名金童，特拉洛克，狮子王）；他不经意地吃了许多神父秘密地送给他的灵丹。长大成为了学者之后，他吃了一颗超大的灵丹（如图6右所示，代表集谛，亦作等起智），所以他四十岁时就变成雨神特拉洛克（如图7所示）了。

图8显示在翠玉女和墨西哥结婚之后，她们俩总结出了一千零一颗灵丹，束成了亦作蜻蜓眼塔。图9显示她们俩是根据治疗腐尸虫来编制灵丹的。腐尸虫代表人生的约三百个根本烦恼（参见11.4.4.1.4《根本烦恼》）或八万四千病（参见14.3.1《八万四千尘劳》。

Figure 5 shows the young Mexico (also known as Gold Boy, Tlaloc, and Jaguar); he inadvertently ate many Spiritual Catholicons secretly given to him by his godfather. When he grew up and became a scholar, he ate a very large Spiritual Catholicon (as shown in Figure 6, right, representing Aggregate Crux, also known as the intelligence of equality arousal), so when he was forty years old, he became the rain god Tlaloc (as shown in Figure 7).

Figure 8 shows that after Chalchiuhtlicue and Mexico got married, they compiled 1,001 Spiritual Catholicons and tied them into a tower called Dragonfly Eyes Tower. Figure 9 shows that they compiled Spiritual Catholicons based on cure for carrion beetles. Carrion beetles represent about 300 fundamental annoyances in life (see section 11.4.4.1.4 “Fundamental Annoyances”) or 84,000 diseases (see section 14.3.1 “84,000 Dust Labors”).

10.10-2 故事线索 Storyline

本回忆录的故事线索就是插图10.10.2-15右端的那根线绳，代表刘团长用它把我和他的女神女儿刘健君捆绑成了夫妻。那根线也被称作金线和黄连（黄连的英文是Goldthread， 金线义，如图38），在中华文化中被称作经，书，和困龙锁，是升天必备的四件法宝之一，能串联人生所需的全部灵丹。

插图1至22是墨西哥（又名特拉洛克，美洲狮，金童）约在1325年画的。金线的纳瓦特语为墨西（Mexi），义为 “这就是” ，是太阳神左翼蜂鸟钓墨西哥的渔线。插图11中被挂在鱼钩上作为饵的脸代表他的女儿翠玉女（玉女）。旁边笑眯眯的，不咬钩的半月脸就是墨西哥。

The storyline of my memoir is the string on the right side of illustration 10.10.2-15, represents that Troupe Leader Liu ties me and his goddess daughter Eve Liu together as husband and wife. The thread is called Gold Thread or Goldthread (shown in Figure 38). In Chinese culture, it is called Sutra, Book, and “Detain Dragon Chain”. It is one of the four juristic treasures necessary for ascension to sky, can cluster all Spiritual Catholicons needed in life.

Illustrations 1 to 22 were drawn by Mexico (also known as Tlaloc, Jaguar, and Gold Boy) around 1325 CE. The Nahuatl word for the storyline is Mexi, which means "this is it" and is the fishing line that the sun god Huitzilopochtli used to fish for Mexico, the “gold turtle son-in law” (as shown in fig. 37). The face on the hook as bait in Illustration 11 represents Chalchiuhtlicue (Jade Girl). The smiling crescent face next to it that does not bite the hook is Mexico.

此故事线索在日耳曼文化中称作 “雷音的带子”（如图35所示），是雷音（佛教中称作大日如来）用来拘禁降伏教子德意志（又名阿尔维斯，睚眦，释迦摩尼）的绳子。当时德意志已经向雷音投降了，接受雷音的女儿紫蕗德（佛号磨牙）为妻子了，所以带子被打成了捆，放在了一边。图中的女人是芙蕾雅（佛教中称作南海观音菩萨），猪代表德意志。图表现的是芙蕾雅在去见国王紫蕗德的路上，她怕紫蕗德派人刺杀德意志，就让他扮成了护卫，跟着自己。

此故事线索也被称作 “打神鞭”（如图36所示），传说是真主安拉送给教子须弥颅（又名亚当，黑头人）的。

The storyline is called "Thor's belt" in Germanic culture (as shown in Figure 35). It is the rope that Thor (known as Great Sun Tathagata in Buddhism) used to detain and tame his godson Germany (also known as Alviss, Gold Boy, Adam, Tanngnjóstr, and Shakyamuni). At that time, Germany had surrendered to Thor and accepted Thor's daughter Thrud (also known as Jade Girl, Eve, Tanngrisnir) as his wife, so the belt was tied into a bundle and put aside. The goddess in the picture is Freya (known as “South-sea Guanyin Bodhisattva” in Chinese Buddhism), and the pig represents Germany. The picture shows that Freya was on her way to see king Thrud. She was afraid that Thrud would send someone to assassinate Germany, so she asked him to pretend to be a guard and follow her.

The storyline is also called "Beating God Whip" (as shown in Figure 36). Legend has it that it was given by God Allah to godson Sumeru (also known as Adam, Blackhead Man).

10.10-3 显灵 Epiphany

本书的第九章及以前讲述从我出生之后三十几年里，刘团长一直在秘密地对我进行做法，即在背后喂食我灵丹。那一个个案例（事件）就是以前佛的一个个灵，但我当时并不懂，而是积累了许多迷惑。在第十章，当我听闻刘团长过世的消息，立刻堕入了地狱（即患了精神病）。我惊慌失措，每天都在思索那些怪事的原因（如图10.10.3-1和2所示）。

Chapter 9 and the previous chapters of this book tell that for more than thirty years after I was born, Troupe Leader Liu has been secretly “making laws” on me, that is, feeding me “Spiritual Catholicons” behind my back. Those juristic cases (events, affairs) were the spirits of the Buddha in the past, but I did not understand them at the time and accumulated a lot of Muddles. In Chapter 10, when I heard the news that Troupe Leader Liu had passed away, I immediately fell into hell (i.e., suffered from mental illness). I was panic-stricken and pondered the reasons for those strange affairs every day (as shown in Figures 10.10.3-1 and 2).

依据传说中的说法，那几年我处于时光倒流的状态，因为我每天都在思索过去的怪事。那些刘团长对我做过的怪事，就是刘团长的灵。那些灵不断地吸引着我思考，占据我的头脑，就是刘团长不断地对我显灵。我和刘团长成为了形影不离的伴侣，所以我的时间是反向移动的，从辽宁拓疆房地产公司，到研究生院，到沈阳和平房产局，大学，高中，初中，童年。

在二零一四年春，我的回忆终于突破了三岁的障碍，回忆出了在我一岁时，刘团长为我和刘健君订婚时的情景（参见第一章《娃娃婚约》），粗略地知道了此真人医学实验（参见4.5节）的前因后果。

According to the legend, I was in a state of time reversal during those years because I was thinking about the strange affairs in the past every day. Those strange affairs that Troupe Leader Liu had done to me were his spirits. Those spirits that constantly attracted me to think and occupied my mind were the spirits that Troupe Leader Liu constantly manifested to me. Troupe Leader Liu and I became inseparable companions, so my time moved in reverse, from Liaoning TJ Real Estate Company to Graduate School, to Shenyang Heping Housekeeping Bureau, to college, High School, Junior High School, and Childhood.

In the spring of 2014, my memory finally broke through the three-year-old barrier, and I recalled the scene when Troupe Leader Liu arranged the marriage between me and Eve Liu when I was one year old (see Chapter 1 “Children Marriage Contract”), and I roughly understood the cause and effect of this real-life medical experiment (see Section 4.5).

10.10-4 灵魂转世的本质 Nature of Reincarnation

2014年，我写完回忆录后，就懂得了灵魂转世的本质。从唯心主义来谈灵魂转世，佛教不相信人有灵魂，但承认灵魂转世。作者我认为他们是从异生性（参见11.4.4.2-5 异生性），即个体性，来考虑的：

{异生性} = {烦恼} + {所知}。

刘团长和我都因为这个实验生病了。人不同，他的病和我的病不同，但我们俩的病都是从这实验中的一系列事件中形成的。从这个方面来说，我们俩患了相同的病，具有相同的{烦恼}。我因为治疗自己的病，学懂了四胜谛（参见第13至16章）。就这样，刘团长把他的所知传给了我，我们俩具有了相同的{所知}。彼灭此起，就形成了我是刘团长的灵魂转世，是他的下辈子的现象。

Talking about soul reincarnation from the perspective of theism, Buddhism does not believe that humans have souls, but it recognizes soul reincarnation. Author me believes that they consider it from the perspective of Mutant Nature (see 11.4.4.2-5 Mutant Nature), that is, individuality:

{Mutant Nature} = {Annoyances} + {Knows}.

Both Troupe Leader Liu and I became ill because of this experiment. We are different people, and his illness is different from mine, but both of our illnesses were formed from a series of events in this experiment. In this respect, we both have the same illness and the same {Annoyances}. Because of treating my own illness, I learned the Four Victorious Cruxes (see Chapters 13 to 16). In this way, Troupe Leader Liu passed on his knowledge to me, and we both had the same {knows}. The demise of one and the arising of the other formed the phenomenon that I was the reincarnation of Troupe Leader Liu's soul, his next life.

插图10.10.4-1和2源自公元七世纪的古墨西哥。图1是帕卡尔王（Lord Pacal，亦作金童，特拉洛克，美洲狮））的灵棺盖板，刻画了他听说神父过世的消息后，体内发生了爆炸（如他屁股下的棺材内所示），堕入了地狱（即患了精神病）。图上部显示十字架或金刚剑插入了帕卡尔王的腹部，表示他被十字架钉住了，病危了。十字架代表四胜谛。

图2显示，帕卡尔王想通了，重生了；他的新身体（即特拉洛克）是四胜谛。四胜谛中，苦谛最大，可以统摄代表其它的三个胜谛，所以图2中的四胜谛是用一根竖杆表示的。胸前的小女孩儿像表示他接受神父的女儿翠玉女做为妻子了，愿意和她共同（如图3所示）撰写新的《法典》（亦作《天书》）了。

Illustrations 10.10.4-1 and 2 are from ancient Mexico in the seventh century. Illustration 1 is the coffin cover of Lord Pacal (also known as the Gold Boy, Tlaloc, and Jaguar), depicting that after hearing the news of godfather's death, his body exploded (as shown in the coffin under his buttocks) and he fell into hell (i.e., he suffered from mental illness). The upper part of the picture shows a cross or a “philosopher-stone sword inserted into King Pacal's abdomen, indicating that he was nailed by the cross and was dying. The cross represents the Four Victorious Cruxes.

Figure 2 shows that King Pakal has figured it out and has been reborn; his new body (Tlaloc) is the Four Victorious Cruxes. Among the Four Cruxes, the Bitter Crux is the biggest and can represent the other three Cruxes, so the Four Victorious Cruxes in Illustration 2 are represented by a vertical rod. The image of the little girl on his chest indicates that he has accepted godfather’s daughter, Chalchiuhtlicue, as his wife and is willing to write a new "Codex" (called "Sky Book" in Chinese culture) with her (as shown in Figure 3).

10.10-5 灵魂转世的表现 Phenomena of Reincarnation

三岁之前的记忆力量强大，据传说有起死回生的力量，华人文化中称作 “人身果” 和 “福”，佛教中称作儒童（梵语Manava），基督教、伊斯兰教、和埃及文化中作亚伯（Abel），日耳曼文化中作马格尼（Magni），古墨西哥文化中作灵龙（Quetzalcoatl）。我的病情并没有想象得那么悲观，也从那时起，逐渐地好转了。

二零一四年六月，我理解了上文的灵魂转世的本质之后，很生气，那就是些理论上的说法，而这个实验却毁了我的家庭和职业。随后，我常常恨刘健君，想象着吃她的肉，但恨她会引起我呼吸障碍，喘不过来气。由于恨刘健君会加剧我的心理矛盾，引发我的胃肠溃疡，我不得不放弃仇恨，行动起来编辑回忆录。

The memory power before the age of three is very powerful. According to legend, it has the power to bring the dead back to life. In Chinese culture, it is called "human body fruit" and "fortune", in Buddhism, it is called Genius Children (Sanskrit Manava), in Christianity, Islam, and Egyptian culture, it is called Abel, in Germanic culture, it is called Magni, and in ancient Mexican culture, it is called Quetzalcoatl. My condition was not as pessimistic as I imagined, and it gradually improved from then on.

June 2014, after I understood the essence of the soul reincarnation mentioned above, I was very angry. It is just a theoretical statement, and this experiment destroyed my family and career. Afterwards, I often hated Eve Liu and imagined eating her meat but hating her caused me to have breathing difficulties and gasp for air. Because hating her would aggravate my psychological contradictions and cause my gastrointestinal ulcers, I had to give up hatred and take action to edit my memoirs.

渐渐地，我忘记了以前的生活，开始喜欢这个灵魂转世实验了，觉得是刘团长让我有了灵魂，使我的生命有了意义。约从2016年我意识到了刘团长的智慧和业绩达到了上帝的水平开始，多年中，我想起他就悲伤流泪，比如一天想起他五次，就哭五次，这似乎已经成了我的一个特质。到2020年时，随着我的回忆录创作的成功进展，我对刘团长的怀念有所减弱，但还是有时候想起他后悲伤落泪。

Gradually, I forgot my previous life and began to like this reincarnation experiment. I felt that it is Troupe Leader Liu who gave me a soul and made my life meaningful. Since 2016, I realized that his wisdom and achievements had reached the level of God. For many years, I would cry when I thought of him. For example, I would cry five times a day when I thought of him five times. This seems to have become a trait of mine. By 2020, with the successful progress of my memoir writing, my nostalgia for Troupe Leader Liu has weakened, but sometimes I still cry when I think of him.

整编于公元二零二四年十月二十五日，卍！

Compiled on October 25, 2024, CE., Auspicious!

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