回国札记 二 新年晚会

临回国前(二月十二号)去伊丽莎白女王剧院观看“同一首歌”在温哥华主办的“新年群星齐萃晚会”。整台晚会气氛热烈，节目精彩，两台三地来了很多明星，济济一堂。

曾志伟和女儿曾宝仪，以及台湾的著名节目主持人小燕联手主持，咋咋呼呼地十分热闹。期间他的外孙女上台来亮相，春节期间在异乡三世同台，也算是这个职业的一个特色。如他们所说，每逢过年过节，他们便格外忙碌，常常一家人分在不同的地方，不能团圆，像这样能够同台演出，也属不易。

这次参加演出的明星有：汪明荃，任贤齐，张韶涵，郑秀文，刘欢，田震，张明敏，童安格，蔡琴，等等。一首首老歌把人们的怀旧情绪调动起来，弥漫了整个剧院。

听着这些熟悉的老歌，屈指算算，二十年过去了，真的不敢相信。记得那时有一首歌唱道：再过二十年，我们来相会。。。二十年，多么遥远，可是我们现在就在二十年后，一切都发生了那么多变化。新世纪也已来临，那时我们做命题作文，想象四个现代化的实现时，如何能想到今天物质生活，现代化的程度。很多的事物都是我们当时怎样也无法预计的。

汪明荃的“万水千山总是情”让我忆起港台电视剧开始盛行的时代，那样的疯狂和痴迷，一部接着一部，狂热地跟着。我印象最深的是“霍元甲”和“上海滩”，那些主题曲到今天还在脑海里萦绕。“万里长城永不倒，千里黄河水滔滔，江山秀丽，叠彩峰岭，问我国家哪像染病。。。”“浪奔，浪流，万里滔滔江水永不休，淘尽了世间事。。。”天天咏唱的都是长江黄河我的大中国，爱国激情日渐高涨。

童安格从前曾让我迷恋了好一阵子，歌声里的柔情常常让我融化了。这次他穿着高领毛衣加外套登场，还戴着一顶贝雷帽，怪怪地。歌声依旧，他还是那样不慌不忙，一板一眼，在舞台上踱步，唱到深情处半侧着身子仰起头，要放飞激情似的。可是人老了，不可避免地老了很多。十几二十年，真不是玩的。

最让我震惊的是张明敏，第一次唱中国心时他清瘦，斯文，长长的白围巾和铿锵有力的歌声见证了海外华人的爱国之心，激得所有黄皮肤黑眼睛的中国人热血沸腾。这天他同样唱了这一首歌，可是他却已变成一个黑胖的中年人，当年爱国知识青年的味道荡然无存，让人感慨时光的印记。他的第二首歌是我最喜欢的“垄上行”，我一直觉得这首歌曲调歌词优美浪漫，让我闻到田野的气息，听到秋日高空中飞扬的云笛，再次触到这歌流行的那一个夏天我快活自由的心境。

蔡琴的表现令人失望。很久以来她的歌声打动了无数的听众，是试听音响的传统曲目。她的声线，歌声里的韵味都十分特别，一曲“恰似你的温柔”是我青春时光里暗暗的心迹。可是她在台上不多的言谈却无可掩饰地让人感觉到她内心的肤浅，和急于功利。说话没有水平，很自我，骄傲，不顾一切地推销自己，真不敢相信这就是唱出那样美妙歌声的蔡琴。看来艺术作品和创造人本身有时还是有距离的，正如电影里的人物并不等于演员本人一样。

节目中间穿插了一些节日的祝福，还有一些来自UBC的学生和大家分享自己的经历和思乡之情，有几个同学和歌星张韶涵一起演唱即兴节目。这些都是春节的老套路了，以前春节联欢会上常有类似的部分，海外不同地方的华人说几句话，在屏幕上放一放，一群人站在国旗前齐声大喊：祖国你好。可是今年不同，我坐在观众席上，看着大屏幕放着这些老掉牙的玩意儿，竟忍不住要哭了，心里大声地也在喊：祖国，你好！祖国，你好！我从来没有想到有这么一天，春节时分我坐在异乡的大剧院里，这样地思念自己的国家，这样深地沉浸在思乡怀旧的情绪里。

在这样的近距离亲眼看到这么多用他们的歌声在我的生命里留下印记的演员们，真是很奇怪的感觉。他们重唱那些熟悉的歌，让我忆起当年的心境感觉，真真觉得时光不再，我们都走过了太多的路程，已不能再回到那些岁月和心境里去了。

刘欢的出场把晚会推向高潮，他当天正好受了风寒，说声音不大找得到，不过会尽全力演唱。他的歌声依然是那么激越高昂，充满了喷薄而出的情感。当他唱道："只因那弯弯的忧伤，穿透了我的胸膛。。。" 那一瞬间我的胸膛也被一种情感穿透了。观众席里发出震耳欲聋的掌声和喧嚣，希望他能加唱一首，再一首。。。

晚会结束时，那首熟悉的歌又响起来，提示人们已是散场的时候。我的眼睛肿胀着，依恋着那一刻，所有的演员都上台来，花团锦簇，笑意盈盈地，很有些节日的气氛。我退场时看到童安格在台上走来走去，和人交谈，不禁有一点奇怪，是不是真的？十几年前我热衷于收集他的磁带时再也想不到会这样近距离地望着他。

回到杭州和同学聚会时，有人提起这场晚会，很多人都在电视上看到转播。我的一个朋友说：镜头摇向观众席，看到很多人挥动荧光棒，我当时还想你会不会在当中。没想到，我真的在当中，还被搞得极其怀旧。

这世上的事，真的很有意思。谁说得准呢。

[明亮]

是这样的，这些明星就在身边是感觉很奇怪。我也最喜欢的“垄上行",很田园的歌曲。蔡琴的歌是试音响的时候常听的，我还以为就我们有这习惯呢。原来她本人是这样的，也有些失望。听了这么多的老歌，真好。

[盈袖2006]

神在阿堵中：也去看了你的新文，好像也是感慨多多，等着看下文。杭州变了很多，开始有大城市的味道了，主题鲜明要做休闲城市。父亲老了，身体也不好。让我很难受

玄米：樱花开了吗？我这次很可惜没有看到

小麦子：我看到蔡琴，真的也挺失望的。

纵然平行： I know exactly what you are trying to express since I do have similar experience. Music plays an important part in my life. It stimulates me, inspires me and in occasions it calms and soothes me. Honestly speaking I can hardly imagine a life for me without music, books and computers.They are the tunnels that connect our hearts to those outside in the world and along the human history.

冰妹妹：谢谢你在我档案里的留言，你很有天才啊。

[ice3]

时光飞逝~弹指一挥间啊~ :((

[纵然平行]

Welcome back and hope you are doing ok after changing pace. Life, as it may have its own rhymes, hectic or not at sometime eventually should be return normal when daily routines settle in -:).

I’d agree with you that some songs or voices or music scores we listen, heard or played at certain points of our life have left "eternal" marks in our memories. When we’d encounter them again willingly or unwillingly our dormant past would be awakened suddenly. And we’d often be compelled to relive or undergo those special moments one more time, either joyful or agonizing, to that matter.

Sometimes I felt that our lives would be made of a string of distinct sounds, each link on this ever-grow chain might embed some codes and capsule a slice of preserved time within until the day is being revealed again to allow us to re-exam ourselves under new lights.

Recently, I found myself to listen Sarah Brightman’s recent CD “DIVA- The single collection” repeatedly. Obviously, her fantastic voice which features three-octave vocal range and extends to an E above Soprano C combined with her singing style is treat for me after a day of stressful work, but, it is not just voice or songs that I familiar with but because the music has made the connection of my past and present. That was the year of 1995 I was a college student in an university where I was very unsatisfied with my life. For instance, the classes I took were boring and professors are dull and uninspiring; a girl I dated was not being proved by my parents just because of her social gentry. My daily escape consisted of playing computer games or music instruments or reading non-textbooks. Till one day I received a CD as a gift, my perspective towards to future changed. The CD was Sarah Brightman’s album named “Fly”. It was not just her singing voice frequently soothing my nerves while I was studying or amusing myself it was that the music clicked in my mind and led me to think about potentials lied ahead and prompted me to made decisions which have been productive. As my music taste was shifted to more contemporary spectrum with time goes her voice was long gone as I thought it should be. Yet, last Nov., by chance, when I was in a music store to buy some CDs her newly released album caught my eyes. Nowadays, as loads and responsibilities at work are seemingly devouring my time and me alive without my consent-:), the songs in Sarah Brightman’s DIVA are able to bring me back to my “restless” period and at same time propelled me forward in other sense . The difference is that this time around, the things would wake me up in the middle night is no longer to bear remote resemblance as they were 12 years ago. However, I know, no matter what would be I will go though peacefully as I did.

Sometime, as people say one needs to face the music. Why not, I’d add “bring it on to stimulate us”.

Enjoy the holiday.

[小麦子小麦子]

从你的字里常看见, 自己的心情.
蔡琴, 真的? 小小的受点打击.

请好好休息!

[玄米]

盈袖好。调整好了吧,等着看呢。

[神在阿堵中]

你好！盈袖，

你也回来了。杭州的山还是那么秀美吗？西湖还是那么温柔吗？老父亲还是那么硬朗吗？

我也刚到，才写了第一篇。慢慢来。