粉红鼠的世界
Proud mama of 3, the little sweet pea is on her way~
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虽然很想直接就在前1节结束故事,最后还是决定不管怎样都要真实面对自己的感情.好像我无法用中文翻出当时的感觉,所以就直接贴当时写的…
Shawn and I talked randomly on our way back home after the farewell party. He said in a low voice suddenly"it's so funny that I climbed to the top of the ladder but suddenly found my ladder was leaning up against the wrong wall""what?" I was confused. He turned and cast me a little shy smile that melted my heart like butter on a crumpet and left a searing imprint on my mind…
Matt and Shawn came to say goodbye after the dinner as within 8 hours they will be on a plane back to US. Our time in Ghana and the village will be over, it's really gone so fast. I suddenly realized that the hardest part of any friendship is when it's time to say goodbye, as much as we might like things to stay the same but change is an inevitable part of life……
We talked a little while, Matt hugged me and back to his room. Shawn leaned against the doorframe and casually asked me if I'd take a walk with him? I nodded silently.
We walked on in silence and my thoughts were in a complete whirl while we wandered aimlessly through the small town. He suddenly asked"shall we dance?""huh? right here?""may I?"he offered his right hand and flashed an irresistible smile to me,I hesitated"oh pls~,don't be silly…" "I promise I won't step on ur toes …""I thought u were a good liar…"I teased with a smile,"I tried so hard…"a big grin on his face and then he delicately spun me into his arms…
The night began to fall while we slowly spun around the first as well as the last waltz, the dim streetlights cast long shadows on the ground, the scents of wild flowers and green grass like a feather floated lightly in the air, the night was filled with chirps, rustlings and the occasional bloodcurdling screams of some unknown birds, I guess there is no better place to dance than this gorgeous starry nite.
A warm air gently made my hair fly through the nite and wrapping itself around my neck, his cologne spun in the breeze and tenderly waltzed my perfume around, my mini-me was like an oriole singing in the green groves with butterflies of all sorts fluttering or dodging briskly above.
It felt like time froze at the moment when our eyes locked on each other. We stopped dancing, his smile made my heart skipped a beat, he gazed at me with a twinkle lit up his deep green eyes and somehow my breath escaped my mini-me faster than a split second…
He hesitated for a moment then held me closer, I could almost hear his heart beating like a drum. My mini-me desperately huddled on the utmost edge cliff of incredibly nervous and squeezing my heart like a lemon frantically while his lips slowly approaching...
Lights went off suddenly and an alarm bell clanging furiously in my head, I turned my face away w/o a second thought and took a big step backward "sorry,I can't…" "I'm so sorry, the apology is mine…" he murmured,stood w/ a blank face and looked like a zombie, I couldn't believe I just simply fended off the most irresistible charm I've encountered, which I might regret in the future!!!
The atmosphere turned decidedly frosty,the silence hung heavy like thick fog around us and I could hear a pin drop in. We sank into a reverie while time played a silent sonnet, an old pendulum clock in my head swung back and forth and reminded me how time slipped away.
"I know it might sound cliché but I can't deny it…" he frowned,said in a very low voice and paused hesitantly"I met a girl who I feel like I've known for ages…... she gives me a heart attack when I'm next to her……I wish I could tell her how I feel but I can't…...it's way easier said than done and just kills me...…" a sheepish grin broke across his face, he brushed his hair back with both hands slowly and tried to regain his composure and manners…
He tenderly smiled at me after he regained his composure and joked in his usual gentle tone"seriously, don't u believe we've met somewhere before, perhaps prom?""perhaps in another life when we are both cats, hahaha…"I teased and intentionally twisted his words out of the real meaning, "hahaha, nice try…"he smiled significantly…
We stood there smiling at each other till he gave me a long tight hug. He kissed my cheek lightly and whispered in my ear"pls take care for me, alright?" I nodded silently and struggling to keep a smile on my face, he clapped my shoulder softly with a half smile"I gotta go… see u when I see u… ah, whatever~!" he shrugged and heaved a long deep sigh then walked away from me…
I think I finally know what he tried to say to me, and understand how he wrestled with the quandary and suffered for his sanity. I believe the universe is conscious, everything happens for a reason and everyone comes into life with a purpose, it makes perfect sense to all of the coincidences between two strangers, but MORALITY just like a bucket of ice water poured on me, from head to toes. Therefore, I comforted my mini-me w/ a faded theory that God must have his reason for creating this weird and awkward episode or perhaps just a beautiful joke, and someday we'll know why!!!
He took a few steps and then turned back, walked backward slowly and waved with a magnetic smile pointed at me like a flame in the dark, I wish I could fly into his embrace just like a moth but I felt like stuck in a hole, cuz God tied me up and nailed both my feet to the ground without notice. Instead I waved back and masked a HUGH smile on my face…
I watched him walk away, smirking and with tears swimming in my eyes. When his figure was completely swallowed up in the dark, I suddenly trembled like a leaf in a raging storm. I bit my lips with all my strength and ordered my mini-me to play it cool and never let the teardrops fall~!
Who do u think u r? why keep me so cold? my mini-me brushed off my order surprisingly. The tears pouring down my cheeks like waves flooding the shore and drowning me so deep, and I just can't reach my mini-me again. Perhaps it's time to set her free and leave the teardrops in Ghana, forever……
Dieu Merci, C'est Vendredi, mon dernier jour ici~! Demain, je partirai et partir avec mon ame, pour un bonheur plus souriant et ma promesse, mais ce soir il me faut aimer, dans les yeux de l'autre et dans la Joie de savourer chaque moment. Merci beaucoup, j'ai eu la chance de rencontrer des gens merveilleux qui m'ont permis de constater les plus beaux moment de ma vie. Au revoir Ghana, adieu mon ami, je t'adore aussi mais je dois partir..…*@#$&*^%&$#@%^ @*....
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I think it's very easy to fell for each other in a remote and exotic place, like, all the senses that are not normally with us are awaken hence the feeling for an attractive person.....