逆境中的见证---女兵刘在军营中被神所爱 日记 02/18/09

亲爱的朋友，你知道吗？今天是不同的一天。 也许，你现在还在甜美的睡梦中，享受着理所当然的休息，这是你该得的。请你珍惜这清晨的平安。 你知道吗？如果你听了我讲述住在军营的战士们的起床时间，你应该会偷笑吧。 现在是 4：58分，如果我还在部队的话，那我肯定是汗流浃背，或做晨操，或奔跑，或行军，还要大声地喊口号，唱军歌。啊，对了，等一会儿，到了 6 点鈡，所有队伍都会停止一切活动，立正站好，对国旗敬礼。这一切真好象发生在昨天。 I have clear memory, when I got back home to Fremont, that one day, Kwang and I were watching "The Renaissance Man" http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1800215464/info. together, he was very surprised to see how the soldiers in the movie would shout out in unison the Army songs and stuff like that. The loud sound was overwelming. "Is that true? You guys are like that every morning?" 他问我。 “每天如此！”我答到, "So, you don't believe this? This is my army life, exactly the same, except the uniform. My Drill Sergeant G told us that this movie was shot at Fort Jackson in 1994. And he suggested that if we miss Fort Jackson，退役后， 去买这部电影的 DVD，肯定会引发很多美好的不美好的回忆”。 这位非洲裔的 Drill Sergeant 真说对了，现在又变回老百姓的我时常拿出这部电影来放一放，来享受我的短暂的军队路生涯。 现在回到主题，今天早上读圣经，读到创世纪 50 章， 50：21 节，深受感动。"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good....“ 转载 45 ：12 约瑟在左右站着的人面前情不自禁，吩咐一声说：“人都要离开我出去！”约瑟和弟兄相认的时候，并没有一人站在他面前。他就放声大哭，埃及人和法老家中的人都听见。 犹大自愿提出要来承担本来要加在便雅悯身上的惩罚，使约瑟再也无法控制自己的感情，他看着这群当初阴谋杀害他，后来把他给卖了的哥哥们，当然他们当中有些不象其他人那么坏，例如犹大、流便等。 一方面他一直认识到，神这么做是为了要供应他们，使他们有粮吃、得存活。另一方面，约瑟也设计了试验，他不仅仅是想要喂饱他们的嘴，他也要喂养他们的心，使他们成为圣洁，他也在教导他们。看，现在试炼开始见效了，至少犹大已经改变到一个程度，自愿地来做耶稣认为是爱中之最的行为，愿意为朋友舍命。因着神的恩典，经过生活的试炼，今天犹大能够来效法最大的爱，即：耶稣为我们死了，这实在让约瑟惊呀得无法控制自己，哭声大得人人都听得见。 这是一件多么有意思的事！整个故事都非常有意思，约瑟救赎他哥哥们的计划看上去是个惩罚，但不仅是从饥荒上、更是从心灵上，从他们的根本态度上救他们。单单是对邪恶的惩罚远远不如将人从邪恶中改变过来那样美好、那样让人喜乐。在我们与别人的冲突中，我们应该努力去把人争取过来而不是报复、惩罚。连神都不喜悦恶人灭亡，神的公义往往就是恶人的灭亡，但这并不是神喜悦之事。你可以从法庭上来理解这点，在一个正义的法庭上，法官一定会宣判、惩罚恶人，这是司法制度的荣耀。当邪恶遭到惩罚，法庭就得荣耀。但是，假如法官在那里喜形于色，拍手称快地说：“好哇，又干掉一个坏蛋！” 那么，法官自己可能有点毛病了。当法官宣判恶人死刑的时候，我们知道他是一个正义的法官，一个好法官，因为正义是好的，是荣耀的。但这不是我们为此感受到喜乐的事。神在末日救赎义人是荣耀的，审判恶人时也同样荣耀的，因为公义是荣耀的。但同时应该强调的是转变人心，因此，我们与人发生冲突时，一定要控制自己的情绪，在与人的关系上决不可存报复之心，而是要允许别人存怀疑之心，但同时又要坚持真理。 约瑟没有忽略他哥哥们所干的坏事，没有说“就算你们没做过吧”。后面我们会看到他直接指出他们的恶行。但是他所做的，是要引他们悔改，他努力地来使他们成圣而不单单是惩罚他们。这不仅是我们做家长的对孩子们应该有的态度，也是彼此之间应有的态度。包括信徒之间，也包括信徒与不信人之间。他让左右的人都离开，不仅是因为他的眼泪，也是为了他哥哥们的丑行不要成为旁人的笑柄。你可以想象一下，假如这些卫兵们知道了这帮兄弟们对约瑟所做的事，去报告法老的话，那可不是件好玩的事。因此，他让人都走开，也是在保护哥哥们。 This was Joseph said onto his brothers who sold him to the merchants many years ago, and they thought that Joseph died long ago. The reason why I found myself deeply touched by these verses is because I identify with Joseph in this regard when I think about what happened to me in my barrecks when the young and ignorant soldiers threw horrible remarks at me. But whenever I was wrongfully accused for something I didn't do or misunderstood, God always sent His angels to approach me and comfort me. And this brought tears to my eyes right at this moment. Yes, God, you love me so much. I saw you so many times in the eyes of my battle buddies. For example, Private Neal, she is a very pretty girl from New York, and she is only 18 years old. I believe she is an angel sent from above. I am really lucky that I kept a picture of her and me at 军营。 那天，外面下着雨，Drill Sergeant Myers announced that he would do a wall locker inspection in 5 minutes, meaning we soldier are supposed to have our wall lockers tidy at all times as instructed many times. "This is terrible!" I said to myself. Because I know clearly that mine was a mess, for sure I will be punished for this. And I went to Burg, our bay boss, who is also 18 years old. "Liu, I wish I could help you, but we don't have time, you see." My friend, SPC Burgess also came to my wall locker, "Let's leave to Him now, Liu. There is nothing we can do at this point of time." I saw the concern in Burgess's eyes. "I should have asked for help earlier. You fool!" I thought to myself. Sure enough, Drill Sergeant Myers appeared in our bay very punctually in 5 minutes, I was so nervous when he passed my wall locker and looked inside. The air seemed frozen for me at that moment, I couldn't breathe. And I dropped my head in defeat. "Liu, clear you mess later." I heard he said to me in lowered voie. "Yes, Drill Sergeant Myers, right away, Drill Sergeant！” 我低声回答，感激的望了他一眼。 之后，一句话也没讲， Private Neal came to me right after Drill Sergeant Myers left. She started to organize my stuff in there. I was so grateful, and didn't know what to say. "Liu, do you want to keep the magazines or share with the other girls?" I heard she said. "啊, 给她们好了，我都看过了。” 然后， 她开始一点一点帮我把垃圾扔掉，把雨衣和洗漱用具等等放到应该放的地方。 不到10 分鈡，我的铁壁橱已初具规模。 “Neal， I, I don't know how to thank you. You help me so much, what can I do to make up to you?” I said to her, with tears in my eyes. She didn't say anything, just came over to me and hugged me real tight, I felt the pure love and warmth deep down in my heart. "You are my angel, Neal, I will never forget today." I told her, choking back tears. "You're alright, Liu. It is nothing." Neal smiled at me. Suddenly, in my mind, she turned to be like older sister, Hongying.Hongying always helped me when I was a little girl back home in Tianjin. I am so grateful, Neal. You are a good girl, I am forever thankful for what you did to me at "Crutch Bay". Wherever you are now, may God bless you and protect you. This morning, I took out my photo album and looked at Neal again. She is so beautiful and her eyes are just so kind, it reminds me of Mona Lisa's smile. I am loved after all. Thank you, Lord, for sending your guarding angel, Neal, to me to protect me and give me love and comfort. I am not afraid any more in any circumstances at last. For I know my Lord loves me. 神爱世人！祂爱我，祂也爱你！ 亲爱的朋友，今天你可能遭遇不公正的待遇，又可能失去了宝贵的亲人，还可能家里的财经状况不大理想，请你记住，神爱世人。你是被爱的，是神眼中的瞳仁。请你珍惜今天，不要为昨天的忧伤烦恼，也不要为明天的事愁烦。凡事欢喜快乐，心存感恩，只要你用心求，神就会派使者今天就临到你。 我祝福你有愉快的一天。感谢你听我的分享。