修心-养家-悟性-忧国

修心-养家-悟性-忧国

Time to review all those as approaching almost half way of my thirties!

修心: Personalities plus inner peace define a person's capability to handle the life cycle of peaks and troughs in the long run. How steady can I stand upon the strike of failure and success, criticism, curse, greed, etc? I am so far way from the inner peace. Anger, anxiety, anticipation, as well as hesitation invade inside the heart and corrode the brain all the time.

养家: all come to one purpose: make all those who love me happy. Not just the money, but offer more with the love and the patience.  Anyway, working hard...harder... the only way to achieve higher career satisfaction in the fluctuating market... no free lunch, and family THE #1. 

悟性: Understand deepest self from understanding the sexual part of myslef. ha, it is quite strange that I write down like this. BUT, I think it is the honest way to document myself. No shame, but ....complicated...really need to tidy it up from the memories gradually. 

忧国: this has become a way of entertaining myself.  what a pity!  but that is what I can do now. It matters and it kills time when needed. AND it is the only way to differentiate my ugliness from my indifference to things.

just some thoughts in a quiet Saturday morning about life. Key in then.

Q