Skipping out of Fred Meyer today, Bobo glanced at the toy horse at the entrance and sighed to herself: I shouldn't have buried the quarter today... With that, she moved on and kept talking like she always does in her awake hours.
I paused at what I heard, and can't help but ask: what do you mean you shouldn't have buried the quarter today?
Bobo responded the way she responds to all my other "what do you mean by..." questions, just matter of fact with no particular emotion or pause "Oh, you know--"
She put her hand in my hand, as now we are walking into traffic to get to the parking, her mouth didn't stop though: I found a quarter today at the playground. But I wanted to play in the monkey bar. So I buries the quarter and then went to play. But after the monkey bar, I can't find my quarter any more..." I laughed to tears in the middle of the road all the way to the parking spot.
Bobo was very pleased -- with my laugh. She said: Mommy, I love it when you laugh. When you laugh, you will be younger and live forever. I told her that I agree and I will live forever. We went to talking about something else.
It's only after we got home, Bobo said what she didn't finish at that parking lot. She said it out of contect and out of nowhere when stepped into the house: I don't ever want to leave you...
Here I am in front of my computer in the middle of the night. I am writing this message with audible laughs and then silent tears.