《夏家湖》的星星之月

中学毕业之当下，命运要捉摸我的命的未来的时间与空间的交换---。如果，四个孩子都在乡下，有一个可以回北京城。这是文件，不是法规。

 

  ---- “ 我去怀柔，大姐可会北京 ”。 我看着妈妈的脸。命运的时空骤然停下来--。

 

    ‘ 你的心 妈妈、爸爸领了。” 妈妈的话是如此的轻。之后，我的命的航程、短程、家庭的含义，----之后，家、子女、生存的意义、为他人父母的斩钉截铁的道理--贯穿我的一生。---这是人的品质、军人的品质，--一个军人家庭的品质。

 

      我看着高处，月亮的滚散的冬季光芒，我看着高处，大雁远行。我看着什么--视觉恍恍惚惚--晃动不停。--我真的对不起大姐---永远的亏欠、内疚、与我的眼泪。

 

   有一次，我站在向北行驶的103路电车的右窗，在过了王府井十字路口之后，突然我看见的大姐在狂暴的寒风中向北行进，因为北京饭店太过高大，造成人为的强风流。--大姐的脚步如此艰难--，如此不犹豫，也无法停与顿停。我的眼泪夺眶而流下。车上的人在看我。--我赶紧低下头。但，抽吸与捂脸还是不能自我控制。---我一生都怀有深深的亏欠、于大姐、家人、朋友、发小，亲人。--我欠的太多、太过沉重、我没有钱、一分都没有。--只有绘画，几千幅辉煌的作品，--耶和华的作品--！

 

   At the moment of graduating from high school, my destiny must grasp the exchange of time and space in the future---. If all four children are in the country, one can go back to Beijing. This is a document, not a law.

 

  ---- "I'm going to Huairou, the eldest sister can be in Beijing". I looked at my mother's face. The time and space of fate suddenly stopped--.

 

    ‘Your heart, Mom and Dad took it. "My mother's words are so light. After that, the voyage of my life, the short distance, the meaning of family, ----then the family, children, the meaning of survival, and the decisive truth of being parents of others-throughout my life. ---This is the quality of a person, the quality of a soldier, the quality of a military family.

 

      I looked at the high places, the rolling winter light of the moon, I looked at the high places, the geese traveled far. What I looked at--visually in a trance--moved constantly. --I'm really sorry for the eldest sister ---forever owe, guilt, and my tears.

 

   Once, I was standing at the right window of the 103 tram going north. After crossing the Wangfujing intersection, suddenly the older sister I saw was going north in the violent cold wind because the Beijing Hotel was too tall and caused man-made actions. Strong wind current. --The steps of the elder sister are so difficult--, so without hesitation, there is no way to stop. Tears flowed down my eyes. The people in the car are watching me. --I quickly lowered my head. However, sucking and covering your face still cannot control yourself. ---I have been deeply owed all my life, Sister Yu, family, friends, childhood, relatives. --I owe too much, too heavy, I have no money, no cents. --Only paintings, thousands of brilliant works,--the works of Jehovah--!