how to get better from 强迫症

在我十几岁时，我是一个快乐的女孩。

我上了大学，并在大二郁闷。

我做了很好的学校，但常常郁闷。

直到，我遇到了这个在读研究生loser。他说服了我发生性关系。因为他是第一想我是相当足够attractive的人。因为姐姐经常tease我的appearance。我有自卑。

我怀孕了。我人流了。I had an abortion.

我开始非常郁闷。我想到了自杀，是什么阻止我? 是Wilkerson的书。他说给上帝三天。让他做一个奇迹。我决定等待，自杀念就走了。

一晃14年过去了，还是郁闷。同时，我生病了。发热和炎症。有一阵子，我想我可能会得癌症。

我发了强迫症。我每天去教堂两个小时。我必须参加在教堂所有的活动。我必须道歉。。我开不好车。我必须非常非常节俭。我想知道为什么。我是一个工作狂，
后来我意识到，这些都是由内疚驱动的，因为我认为我不值得live或过好日子，我惩罚我自己。现在，我开更好的车，而不是强迫症。现在好多了。感谢您的阅读。

I developed OCD. I had to go to church every day for two hours. I had to attend all events at church. I had to apologize to people first. I had to do my rituals for two hours. I had to drive bad cars. I had to be very very frugal. I had to give things to people. I was wondering why. I was a workaholic as well.。

直到我试图从abortion愈合. I received healing through Rachel's vineyard, and from Sisters of Life. Then I realized that these are compulsions driven by guilt, because I believed I did not deserve to live or live a good life, I was punishing myself. Now I drive a better car, not as OCD. Much better now. Thank you for reading.