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6/2 星期一

(2008-06-01 10:07:22) 下一个
已经过1点,明天要早起,但我却不想睡觉。很多事情在心里,刚刚给Miho打了电话,聊了好久。我对和D的relationship没有信心,我们相互了解不够,且离彼此那样远,我连普通的relationship都弄得一塌糊涂,更何况long distance. To be honest, I dont want myself to get hurt, and I am afraid that I would care more than he does, cos usually who cares more would get hurt more when things fall apart. I know I am being selfish on this, but I am really afraid of some shit down the road which would break my heart. Now I totally understand why Rob decided not to see me again, he was afraid of the same thing I am afraid of now. I am not better than him on any sense, he could make the decision, but I cant. I do like D a lot, but... How can you fall in love with someone without caring about him/her much? I guess I have been single for too long, and very used to the single status, think less, care less, everything casual, no responsibilities, and would never get hurt cos I dont give shit.
 
And long distance, its just... suffering, suffering, suffering, lol. Always between the sweetest memories and the hopes for the next time, its exhausting. And when I need someone standing by me, he would never be here... How this thing could work out?  How far we could go for love? How much suffering we have to go through?

我好像站在悬崖边,琢磨着跳,还是不跳,下面究竟是水,还是岩石?Miho建议我keep my options open,她最近处于空档期,又要拉着我去hunting,I am her best "wingman". I guess, only time, can tell everything, wish I could see through all the confusion.


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sony008 回复 悄悄话 早睡早起身體好!
jgey 回复 悄悄话 呵呵...明白了.
clee 回复 悄悄话 我說這話的確是言之過早,只是怕你越陷越深,此時勸你另起爐灶,確是Fans過慮之罪. 愛情是偉大的, Fans應該拭目以待.
jgey 回复 悄悄话 您这评论真让我...不知道该怎么回,这都哪儿跟哪儿啊...

the point is the commitment issue, 和姐弟恋有什么关系???

clee 回复 悄悄话 偉大的黨主席曾說: “開放就是新的企機, 不要在局絀的環境下發展,…“. I think to keep your status open is the best policy. You probably need to go to graduate school to select one course as part time student, then you will have better chance to meet more friends with your age there. 而且姐弟戀不是也很普遍嗎? ……
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