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12/8 星期五

(2006-12-08 06:34:28) 下一个
周二是我生日, 27岁, 没什么兴致庆祝. 老爸回顾历史, 展望未来, 给我留下一句话, --"知足者常乐". 我并不是很喜欢这句话, 或许对于爸的年纪的人来说, 知足就是养生之道, 而我还年轻, 保持一点野心和欲望, 才有前进的动力. 老妈在MSN上"肉麻"的又是HUG又是KISS的祝我生日快乐, 我哼哼哈哈的表示"同乐同乐", 前些日子的心情不爽, 其实都和生日的到来有关, 我把其称为birthday virus. I am quite scared, already 27 years old, but I didnt achieve any goal of life yet, what I have done and the path I have chosen might probably be wrong, this thought drives me nuts, and its very serious. To be honest, a little depressed, and quite much frustrated, thats why the whole week I have been acting weird, and have problems to focus on work or whatever things. This could be a big moment of my life, I finally realized that what I am looking for in life is not security, but freedom. I think freedom is the best security people can achieve in real life. For a simple example, people work hard in some big company for being financially secure, but this security is provided by the company, by the owner, by someone else, which is actually not as secure as people expect, just look at Enron... But if people achieve the financial freedom, in which case their money working for them to make more money, people dont have to work any more, they just provide themselves the best security they can desire. Finally figured out what I want, so now, its the show time. I am still scared like hell, but will move forward, I hope so.

昨晚和ANDREW一起吃晚饭, 话题颇为严肃, 从宗教信仰, 到英国的宗教史, 我困得稀里糊涂, 只记得ANDREW强调亨利8世娶了N个老婆, 人家是国王, 养得起, 爱娶几个娶几个. 等哪天我有精神的, 可以给他讲讲中国皇帝的后宫三千佳丽, 一定让亨利8世羡慕死. I think Andrew wanna get into a relationship with me, he was trying a few times to hold my hand during the dinner cross the table. I would rather talk with him about his new recruiting company than anything personal, well he is a nice guy, gentle, talkative, but... there is always a but, I dont have the "butterflies in stomach" feeling for him. Even though I am alone now, still I dont wanna start a relationship just for that I dont wanna be alone. Actually its not that bad to be alone, there are too many distractions in life, only one bad point for being alone...Mario is not coming back to town yet...damn Mario!

Anyway, got to go, have to catch the last train.
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jgey 回复 悄悄话 没关系...红包照收的...哈!
elpher 回复 悄悄话 迟了,生日快乐!...
jgey 回复 悄悄话 谢谢你.
cLee 回复 悄悄话 祝你生日快乐!! 为你 "前进的动力" 加油 !!
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