7/19 星期三-II

因为无聊,于是想尽办法发散过剩的精力.中午去GYM,跑步,跑到头脑一片空白...从镜子里看到可爱的INSTRUCTOR RYO, 忍不住细细打量, bring smile, strong arm...so sexy! 他指导的那个老外长得也蛮漂亮,我一边做WEIGHT LIFTING,一边CHECK THEM OUT.看帅哥也是件让人开心的事情,GYM里的男人虽然没有帅得象金城武,但健康,FIT,也很赏心悦目.working out is kinda self-control, a guy who goes working out regularly and being fit may have a strong will and good self-control on his own life, which is very attractive.

运动过后,一边做CYCLING,一边随便翻GYM的杂志放松,--日本的女性时尚杂志[CLASSY].翻到这样一页,--"男人喜欢的女性STYLE",日本女人把"女为悦己者容"做到极至,一置千金买高档服饰和化妆品,打扮得精致得体,最终的目的还是为了要讨男人的欢心,所以日本的女性时尚杂志经常有这样的COLUMN,找各行各业的男生讨论他们所喜欢的女生打扮,或是FEMININE,或是CUTE...这是我非常讨厌日本女性时尚杂志的最主要原因之一,我辛辛苦苦的赚钱,开开心心的花钱,为什么要在乎那些莫名其妙的男人的看法?为什么要降低我自己的品位去迎合某些男人的糟糕品位?这种COLUMN实在是愚蠢,所以我宁愿看ELLE或VOGUE这样的纯FASHION杂志.

上周六是廖的生日, I sent a message to say happy birthday, he replied "thank you". Cant believe he already turned to be 29 years old, time is flying, it has been 4 years, since the first time I met him. 4年,好长的时间,还是一样的无奈,没什么缘分,偶尔知道他的消息,知道他过得还不错,就这样啦.我们注定只是彼此生命里的过客,任何努力都没有意义.

前几天听信乐团的[死了都要爱],很喜欢.喜欢那种强烈的感觉,"死了都要爱,不淋漓尽致不痛快...死了都要爱,不哭到微笑不痛快",怎样勇敢的人才能这样去爱,这样应该不会无聊,才可以刺激我半死不活的神经.可惜,能够爱到这样强烈的对象实在很难找,这年头大家都很CASUAL, CASUAL的约会,CASUAL的爱,不疼不痒,不动心也不伤心,究竟是进化,还是退化???现在我只对漂亮的鞋有强烈的感觉,本来想好这个月不要再买任何奢侈品,但在ISETAN看到JIMMY CHOO的鞋就挪不动脚步,让SALES抱来各款35半SIZE的鞋,一双一双的试,开心得不得了.和JIMMY CHOO的"约会"很快乐,但是快乐是有代价的,将近500$从我钱包里消失了,带回家一双闪亮的紫色高跟鞋,its fabulous.

[jgey]

TO M+M
有些人值得KEEP IN TOUCH,有些人不值得啦...不过分手后成朋友的少之又少...说明大家爱得都很深刻嘛,哈!

TO G.C.
the balance between money and shoes is much tougher to handle =)

[G.C.]

That's risk you run dating a friend, but then again the reward can also be super sweet. Everything in life is a balancing act, like money, or shoes?

[M+M]

I totally agree with your friend Allen's theory. most relatoinship end coz 2 people cant stand each other's behavior. say, one jerk i dated ended up giving me a midle fingure. i don't see any point still being friend with him

so, you're right, not having him is the only way to have someone forever.