凝眸

Living in a basement room got me sleep all the time the first year when I's a student here. I longed to be showered up by sunshine, given my previous life that had never been in a basement room. It's like a prison windowless - so depressing. So lonely. I's skeptical what the heck I's doing coming here ...

Thank God, for letting me out of the prison.

“孤独一点，在你缺少一切的时节，你就会发现原来还有个你自己。”我的住处已由干燥的北京移到一个明朗华丽的海边。海既那么宽泛无涯无际，我对人生远景凝眸的机会便较多了些。海边既那么寂寞，他培养了我的孤独心情。海放大了我的感情与希望，且放大了我的人格。来源：岳麓书社公众号 摘自沈从文《新与旧》

My first job came with an office windowless. One hand, I's happy to have a private room. On the other hand, I got back to the nightmare, windowless prison.

I stare at sky through windows. The sky is simply blue, with some white clouds, static. So static, sky is lonely, and clouds are lonely, I thought. Just like me.

凝眸, you can see reaching out to your soul - loneliness. It's such loneliness that you discover the world of your own space - nobody can reach deep down to.