New Year Resolution

I will find my true nature and the path of righteousness. I will not complain, make excuse and whine. I will not be needy and wanting in any relationship.

I will not hate you or be upset if you treate me in your way not my way because you are not created for my good feeling. I'm the one who is created to meet all of my needs. I'm the one who is responsible for my health, happiness, and fulfillment.

I will not be angry after reading another useless book. It is useful for someone. Unless I truly believe I am good enough here and now. Nothing can make me better.

Maybe self-development and self-mastery are experiences and adventures for self-discovery instead of improvement in social ranking or personal possession.

Maybe the burning desire to transform self from nobody to somebody is the lies of ego instead of the voice of soul. Maybe we are all unique puzzle of the universe. Tiny but essential.

Maybe success and failure, comfort and suffering, enlightment and walking dead are all stories we choose to tell, to share, to believe. 

Maybe there is no friend and no enemy, the only real is life itself. It continues with joy and sorrow.

I will not be selfish, suspicious, and greedy in 2022. I have enough of it. Relationship indeed is the corner stone for all good things in life. Acceptance, Respect, and trust are price paid for meaningful relationship. I decide to give everyone in my life a new start, full attention, and genuine goodwill. I will not compete with anyone for anything. It must be a delusion that anyone can take away something that belongs to me.

I still do not understand why success is so easy for many but so difficulty for the rest. I still try to understand why a lawyer can earn 22M a year and how to become a lawyer like that. I even have no courage to ask the question.

I will not brag that I prepared a tax return for a king. I will not fight for the next promotion because it will not fill the hole in my heart.

I lost myself. I will find me in 2022.