[原创英诗中译] 无声（Silence)

无声

只有当你睡熟了
我才敢走近了坐在你身边
轻柔的月光从身后的窗户
投射出一道山脉在你的睫毛上
那是我的头和肩膀
你知道我并不高大
只能如此变作大山
不让夜风惊扰你梦的甘甜

我温习瑜迦以控制呼吸
只是太近了稍微有点动静
也会惊动你使你梦见狂风暴雨
还有电闪雷鸣大作
飓风，龙卷风袭随之而来
看着你又是翻身又是悲叹
我焦急得眉头紧锁啊
只有这夜色平静如水

当那戏剧性的一切发生时
你在岸上离得太远所以看不见
我被那海浪纠住了，经过
一千零一次冲刺之后，终于
上了船，飘摇于风口浪尖
接着又摔下去了，跌进了深渊
好在你没听见任何可怕的噪音
因为那阵子海啸突发震耳欲聋

双唇紧咬把牙都咬碎了
咬到疼处是为了缓和那疼痛啊
就是被撕成碎片仍然拒绝叹息
不要等我了，我不会回来了
只有我灵魂那团雾气还会飞向你
在你头顶投射出特定的光环
环绕着你的脸庞，日里夜里为你照亮

2007年8月翻译

---

Silence

Only when you fall deep into sleep
I come to sit really close to you
The faint moonlight from the window behind
casts a mountain range over your eyelids
They are my head and shoulders
You know I am not a big guy
only at moments like this I become a mountain
to block the wind from disturbing your dreams

I try to control my breath by practicing Yoga
But the closeness magnifies everything that vibrates
You may have dreamed of gusty winds
lightning strikes and thunder rolls
even hurricane and even tornado
Your tosses and moans twist my eyebrows
Only the night is as peaceful as peace can be

When all the drama unfolds
you are far, far away on the beach
I am deeply entangled with the treacherous sea
After a thousand and one attempts
I finally stand up on my keyboard
high on the tip of a monstrous wave
That triggers my fall, a hard, hard plunge
But you are too far to hear any smashing noises
Except the wailing of the ocean

My teeth become powdery while biting my lips
I also bite deep into the pain to make it dull
Yeah, I am smashed apiece and still refuse to moan
Please don’t wait up for me, for I am not coming back
Sure, my soul, that ball of fog, will fly to you
casting a particular halo of glow over your head
and around your cheeks to brighten you day and night

April, 1997