[Gilbert O'Sullivan] Alone Again naturally 自然独处

 In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off
In an effort to
Make it clear to whoever
Wants to know what it's like

When you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Were people saying, My God, that's tough
She stood him up
No point in us remaining
We may as well go home
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday

I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn't do
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about, God in His mercy

Oh, if he really does exist
Why did he desert me
In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally
It seems to me that
there are more hearts
Broken in the world
that can't be mended

Left unattended
What do we do
What do we do
Alone again, naturally
Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears

And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start
With a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me

No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally



一直在想什么是孤独？ 孤立？独自？ 只要自己不抛弃自己，那就不会孤独，有一种快乐就是找到自己，面对自己， 接受自己，无论外面天翻地覆，多么黑暗，都不怕， 只要有自己迷恋喜好，哪怕就是喜欢扫地搽锅头， 生活起来就会有节奏韵律快乐，这种快乐不需要别人施舍，自己土造！

母亲告诉我她每天都很开心， 不知她的快乐从哪来， 又不太出门， 又不听音乐，不懂了。

记得小的时候，母亲下班回来把锅头搽得亮亮的，她会兴奋地给我看，前段时间电话中母亲自豪地说她叫阿姨把被子放好，然后她自己花了一个下午针线钉好了一床被子，真厉害！我为我的母亲自豪！针线活也有韵律， 她肯定是一边针线一边哼歌，母亲真会土造快乐啊。

孤独也让人静思，自由海阔天空，有难过就自己找自己谈话，懒得去麻烦别人开导，但愿我身上有那么点母亲传来的土造快乐基因, 这样就不怕忧郁的偶尔袭击和想不通了。

无论怎么样， 每天一个人陪伴自己一直走完人生的还是自己， 学会自然独处，享受快乐，消化痛楚，生命之歌全是高调也太单调苍白，也不好听。