I am a loser

since 1988 I have loved several girls and married one of them who I love the most we love each other very much and have a lovely girl but still I cannot forget all other girls one is my classmate who is top in college she is not pretty but still got my heart because I was fall in love with my wife I had to give up I talk to her only when she left she was nice and got a good husband I am happy for her although I still love her another lady was a girl in another department who is a geniues and work for MS she comes from Nanchang 2 years younger than me she is a beauty who is 'wu yan' I came to us in 1999 after that I've never seen her the third girl looks like the first one and I felt the love when I saw her at the first glance she has boyfriend I have my family so I know there will be nothing although I really love her so far I have only those loves besides my wife I know my wife is the one I love most but still I am sure if there is such a need I can die for any of them