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刚刚踏上作为神职人员的道路。心中既有期待也有怯懦。不知道前面的道路如何,也不知道如何服务上帝,服务别人。开始记录这一切,希望能激
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Schoolarship

(2005-07-06 00:22:53) 下一个
I failed on the application of schoolarship of Chinese ministry. The first response of it is discouraging. I feel that my ministry was not identified by God. How can this happen? After this, I began to refelct that case. I am studying theology in English, and I am carry on my mission in an English church. These facts will make them doubt on my willing to be a minister of Chinese. Furthermore, I had ever divorced. This is also a fact that make them doubt on me. Maybe, they want me show the pain of this experience of divorce. But I wont. It is unfair to let me show my deepest feeling in front of them to gain their compassion. I dont have to. In fact, I am not angry with them. I am really different from other Chinese theology students. And I feel that the Chinese Christian community need such kind of different ministers in the future. It is not a easy way, but God call me to be one. Or the Chinese churches will always be like that. But I really want to gain answer from God. That is why. Why you dont give me that? Dont you know I need it? But only one scripture jump into my heart. It was in Matthew. When Peter fallen into water, Jesus catch him and say: "you of little faith, why did you doubt?" It is not an accusation for me, but an encouragement. God, in my mind, is really a strange guy. He never answer the question directly but he always point to the deepeset need in my heart.
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上帝的孩子们 回复 悄悄话 Dear Lin: I am also studying at the seminary and I am trying to get myself ready to serve God. However, I know that I always reserve a little room for myself and have not allowed God to touch those areas I don't want him to touch. God is truly patient and amazing, he allows time for me to grow.

Let's keep each other in our prayers.

In Christ,

Young.
林清美 回复 悄悄话 我偶然经过这里,听见了你的心声.
上帝肯定也听到了,既然连我也听到了.
那现在你怎厶样了呢?
现在的你呢?
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