自言自语(4)

I have been secretly harboring the thought of quitting my job. 

I love my work; I just despise the fact that I have to work during certain hours, which completely ruins my daytime and make any other plans nearly impossible. Maybe it is time to start something on my own, if I have the motivation and direction. 

What an impractical thought! Quitting my job in such an economy! I thought I was practical-minded! --- There is always that little voice within me pulling in the other direction. 

What I miss most while away at work is picking up the kids each day right after their school. I do that a few times a year and it is just not adequate. Princess asked me a few weeks back, “Mom, why aren’t you like other moms and pick me up after class? Why do I have to be at the after-school care?” I made up something and she nodded. Yet I know in my heart I have been missing out all the bonding moments and excitements she wants to share with me right after class. (sigh)  I will regret even more when they grow older. I will just have to make up my mind and quit my job once and for all. Well, after a second thought, the practical mind tells me that maybe I should wait till J’s business takes off.  (sigh again).