友若此，复何求

     i have to believe somehow there is a high power that has been watching me.

     in this sad winter day, i suddenly got a phone call from Beijing. in the afternoon, we were in a fitting. a Beijing Phone number showed up on my phone. it is 3:00am there.

     it turned out to be my friend L. she worried about me. she says those others are worry about me as well, i should call them and let them know i am doing fine.

     Oh these friends from 11 years ago, what did i do to have such great friends? L is the most boyish one, cursing all the time and making mean comments about world. but she has the softest heart. she worries about me, she has been waiting to call me. she just lost her cat herself, she knows , somehow today i would be sad.

     then i called those others, some try to give me a lecture about women, others are just making sure i am OK. yeah, yeah, i am trying to see this fuck*ing world and try to face it again. man, whatever i saw already, it is not easy for me. but, whatever, whatever, i am not afraid, if i don't dare to start over, then i am too old.

     then it is N. N the beautiful girl, my best friend. i gave her hugs and warm words when she was in tears, today it is her turn to give me. i watched her growing up with me. this girl is like my big sister today. she had "scandalous" relationships, God, i love her when she said that. cool , i just need to refresh my skills for those relationship stuff, don't I.

     Then it is F, my friend from here. the lovely F. she told me to indulge myself  to be sad today! i will, indulgence is my thing !

     thanks, thanks, i should be so thankful to everything i have, even to those who hurt me. for the moments i was happy, the small moments, the sparkles, the fun, the desire, the warmth. was it true? i guess for how long it existed, it was true. but, well, it is the world, the ever changing world i am living in. in several monthes, i forgot a lot of things, i forgot that i am ready for the whole, fantastic world, and this new thing called "freedom" i love the most, is in my hand, right there.

     i am ready to fly again.

[bambooseven]

娅米，谢谢！我真幸运，有这么好的朋友。
我没事的，没什么大不了的。会好的。

[bambooseven]

thanks bodylanguage. i agree. and i am looking foward to that peace from inside!

[bambooseven]

阿健－－谢谢，我没事，你没有什么歪论 ^_^ 我是运动白痴，不过在沙滩上跑步听起来很不错。下次到最近的沙滩去一定跑。不过到最近的沙滩也得四小时吧。
谢谢，谁说我们不认识，我们在这儿认识。

[娅米]

睡一觉，一切就又都是新的了。

祝你牛年愉快！

[bodylanguage]

I do agree with 阿健's suggestion, although the peace of mind would ultimately come from inside.

[阿健]

看了这篇知道你现在情绪不佳。希望我之前的歪论没有起了坏作用。

因为不认识你、就不好说什么了。不过、我自己对付不佳情绪的方法是运动、长跑一至二小时、最好在沙滩上、可以避免膝盖受伤。汗水似乎能洗去烦恼。

仅供参考。