Thanksgiving 2010

I was going to have a nice thanksgiving. I went to church, try to get some wisdom from Price, making myself happier. His preach only make know how good you have a thanksgiving heart, but not make me know how to be thankful. I find myself more guilty when I complain, the result is I am less happy. Last night, was thanksgiving Monday night, hate is full of my heart. I'm too angry to sleep. Is God punishing me? When I know every of my friends was taken care when after giving birth, I am out of rage. Giving birth is such a happy thing, but his mom is so down, and never come to visit us. God, I can never forgive her. I want her go to hell, I want she is killed soon, I don't want to see her anymore. God, I cannot imagine how can I have a close relationship with this kind of bitch, she is so cheap, but try to make herself expensive. God, kill her, kill her, no matter what happen. I just hate her. 

[最佳女主角]

谢谢。

[五弟五哥]

没有比愤怒和仇恨更伤害自己的了！
知道那个故事吧：小孩子郁闷，跑到山颠大声喊，我恨你，你该死！山谷回声：我恨你，你该死！
等孩子的妈妈告诉他，你要爱人，别人才会爱你。他又跑回山巅，大声呼喊：我爱你！
山谷回报他：我爱你！