nov.17

I know I like T, I know I also hate myself because of this. T is my boss, he is married and the second child is coming. I don't want to do anything with him. I know, there is nothing I can do with him. But, whenever I think about I will leave sooner or later and I may never see him again, I may never connect with him again, I can feel the heart breaking, the tears couldn't stop falling. But, he know nothing about this. I have been so cool, I covered so good. except work, I don't talk to him. I get mad at him and act it out so often. He must think I am the toughest person in his team.....
I have read so many love stroies, I have been touched by so many love stroies, I have been cried over so many love stories. Those tears were a relief, they make me feel better, feel the heart became lighter. But when it come to myself, I know it is so hard to descripe it, it is so heavy for a heart to bear it, the tears tast so bitter.....deny it, ignor it may feel better.