love is not easy

I had believed that there is a special one for me, I find him and love him. I had believed that the special one will find me and love me. But, I am not sure about this anymore. He came to my life like fate, even though we are set up by a not so close friend. The fist meeting wasn't bad in my oppion. We talked, especially I talked much more than I did nomally. I am not a talking person. I thought he liked me. But, we didn't contact after that for about 3 months. I was confused and didn't know what I did wrong. Though, I was kind of disappointed when I saw him. He looks old, not very clean looking, totally different from my imagination. But, I was more dissappointed when I didn't get any phone call from him. I start to lose my confidence. Then, 3 months later, the friend contact me again and told me that he asked for another meeting. I was bored the whole summer. Tom was not very into work the whole summer. I didn't have much work to do. No dating, no working. So, why not go and see what will happen.