Where am I going?

Everybody lives a different life and everybody walks a different way. For me, what is going to be the next? I try to figure out where I am going, but I seem to be lost at the beginning. Is it because I chose the wrong direction? Or am I that stupid that I could not totally fit in this field?

 

I still remember my last year in high school. I was exhausted. I was frightened at the idea what if I failed the entrance exam. Well, I failed once. I always know I am not the genius type. But I am 33 now. I might have 30 or more years to live. But I still don’t know what I like most. The failure 14 years ago is still like a nightmare that I will never forget. Now I have this, sitting at home and waiting. What I should do?

 

Writing? No, I like reading more. I cannot put a thorough story all together. I believe that literature is a mirror of life. My life is boring to write.  

 

Doing business? Who am I kidding?

 

I prayed so long to God, but I never really got a response. I thought it was “patience” that I am learning. Is that all? Who can answer me?

[igranangel]

The first thing I think is: well, I am not alone. There are people out there, like me, feeling depressed and lost of the direction. I also do not know the answer to your question, which actually is the question I am asking myself so often recently. But at least I can say: You are not the only person who feels that way. Don't be too harsh to yourself. And no matter what life gives to us, what we can do is to try our best to enjoy it. Good luck.