洪晃:无目的美好生活

咱国家，每年GDP都能增长五、六、七个点，要不是有好多好多人“深深地投入”了好几回，怎么会有这种盛世景象。只不过我们的投入都是非常有目的的，是追求回报的。在咱这儿，投入的人不少，那怕是投入爱情、艺术和友谊，都能算出个内部、外部和中部的回报率，算不出来就坚决不投。

我曾经有一个朋友，其老公是加洲一汉学家，这两口子深深地在中国文人身上投入了好几回，把他们一个个弄去加洲，好吃好喝，认真投入友情，有时候还搭上点爱情和色情，但是回报都不太好。就比如吧，他们把一个无名演员推荐给一个大导演，演员最后睡了导演，和他们吵翻了。还比如，他们也把我介绍给导演干个小活，结果他们跟睡导演的演员吵翻了时候，我采取中立的立场，没站在他们一遍谴责这个该死的小婊子，从此以后，他们再也不在我身上浪费时间了。

总而言之，我们的投入都是有目的的，我们投入友情是为了关系，投入爱情是为了占有，投入艺术是为了成名成家，我们对回报的期望质到了不可控制的地步，而一旦没有得到，我们可以坚定地放弃。在咱这，啥都有个bottom line, 如果经商，这词应该翻译为“底线”，是个数字概念；但对于那种对友谊、爱情和艺术追求回报的人来讲更确切的翻译可能是“屁股线”，当其期待的回报没有的时候，他的屁股就再也不会坐在你这遍了。

我这辈子只上过三堂哲学课，然后就知难而退了。我当时对知识的投入很明确，就是为了文凭和奖学金，哲学这玩意太深奥，我搞不明白，怕分数太低，丢了奖学金，拿不着文凭。但这三堂教的东西我至今记得非常清楚，第一堂课说的是“目的”，第二堂课说的是“过程”，第三堂课老师让每个人给自己定位是追求目的，还是追求过程。我向来力争作一个追求目的的人，但骨子里是个追求过程的人，因为我致命的缺点就是贪玩。只要好玩我就想作，管你什么内部回报和屁股线，不想那么多。所以我在一个GDP增长五、六、七个点的经济奇迹中造就了个人财富增长率进入负数的奇迹。

我这种傻瓜不多，但还是有的，现在和我一起在大山子798工厂瞎折腾的人就是这类人。明明知道还有不到12个月，地主就要把所有人都捻出去，现在的装修在短期内就会被推土机全部压平，还是有人在往这里搬，还有人在装修，还有人在创作。这种投入除了享受一下过程大概没有什么别的回报了。

我倒是挺想号召大家没有目的地，深深地投入一回。要知道，生活的乐趣都在过程里面，而目的只是在长长的过程之后一秒种的高潮。

 
                                                                                                              --洪晃

[flamenco_girl]

I agree too that China is in a developing stage, the growth is not balanced across. Maybe this can be counted as "growing pain".

[flamenco_girl]

Melly, I agree with you that enjoying goal or process is also an individual style and preference. We can see both types of people around us. "Shouldn't one enjoy the process clearly and intensivey and 难得糊涂 when missing the climax of reaching the goal"? Yes, it happens all the time, and it happens more to one type than another though, dosen't it?

[melly]

回复flamenco_girl的评论:

I appreciate your much clearer insight about process and goal. It is the goal which makes the long process much more enjoyable and meanwhile painful. It highly depends if the one is optimistic or pessimistic, I guess, and it is a state of mind and personal view. Shouldn't one enjoy the process clearly and intensivey and 难得糊涂 when missing the climax of reaching the goal? hehe....

She ironocally critized people who lost their interest for spiritual dreams but pursuing money and power in China in all 3 essays you posted here. I agree with her. While I was visiting my hometown last winter, I felt people and the city were very pompous. I do not like it but I don't blame it either since people have different dreams. And one is not able to enjoy spiritually unless he/she has plenty materially and doesn't have to worry about his/her daily life. The things I do not like is the less and less moral values.

[flamenco_girl]

I feel it's the goal make 过程 more enjoyable, because you have hope, though you may never reach the goal. So, the 目的 is not only contribute to the 长长的过程之后一秒种的高潮. You may never have the 高潮, but enjoyed the 过程 with the hope, then you may still achieve a lot. Like in dance competition, everyone's goal is Champion, but very few can make it in life time. End up, we enjoyed dancing with great motivation to improve along the way. If someone don't have a goal, but just go through the process of learning dance day by day, likely will not improve so fast, and not be able to enjoy intensively either. We can see plenty of examples.

I guess, she is trying to say 现在大部份中国人太现实，太重利益。

[melly]

Apparently, you love her essays. Me too. Full of humor, wittiness and wisdom. "屁股线", what a vivid word.

People always say that we enjoy the process of life rather than the results. However, people still feel disappointed when failing to obtain what they expect. It applies for wealth, work, love, friendship. 生活的乐趣都在过程里面，而目的只是在长长的过程之后一秒种的高潮。This is so true.

Thank for sharing.

Good weekend.