又一次委曲求全

父亲节早上,看见门口放着的礼物盒,真为LG高兴,女儿总惦记着所有该庆贺的日子,不忘奉上一片心意,为了每一个特别的日子,她都会精心策划期待.当然这一天也是满心欢喜地与我商量出外用餐,准备举杯共祝LG:Happy Father's day!

整装待发后,意想不到的事又一次发生了.LG发动了汽车后,我欲上车,但门是自动上锁的,不知他出于什么动机,倒车往前开了一段路才让上车,因为类似的场景前一天也发生过,我就责疑他为什么总是喜欢与我作对,难道要我不高兴他才开心吗?以前有过太多诸如此类的事情了.这下他就象火药筒一样大吼大叫,我保持沉默,由于长久来结聚了过多的郁闷,我在那里暗自抽泣.他却更加肆无忌惮地骂人,丢转车头说:还吃什么饭,回去了.后来因为不想拂了女儿的心意而让女儿扫心,又委屈求全了一次.当然内心是无比的......,回想起来,每次只是一些鸡毛蒜皮的小事,他就可以为之大发雷霆,有时明显是他的蛮不讲理引起的,而结局都是以我的委曲求全收场,其实我只需要一个温馨甜蜜的家,为了女儿维护我们本来幸福美满的家而已,可是有时好不容易刻意营造的气氛总被他无情地打破,虽然很不愿意地提及他的那段出轨往事,可还是忍不住联想起除了那个无耻的女人,是谁让他变得如此不可理喻呢?.
在情绪崩溃的边缘,有时我怀疑还能支撑多久,

 

 

 

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回复cj20878的评论:
谢谢你,其实在那事件中我学会了很多,虽然心伤依旧,我已经在渐渐学会忘却,学会坚强.我何必为别人的过错付出代价呢.我会好好地生活着,享受多彩的人生.

[cj20878]

Accidentally read your BLOG. It sounds so helpless but imply your wisdom.
Be strong! Not all the marriages ended up with happiness. It really does not matter the love is still existing in the marriage or not. It matters that if or not he/she bear the responsibility for the kid(s), - they are the foundation of marriage.If so, you should feel lucky that your hubby still care the marriage since he cares your kids!
Life is going on, same as love! After another 5 yrs, you will see that your marriage easily survive.

However, what happens when your daughter leaves for college? - That will be crisis, in my opinion.

Be strong!