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after x'mas after the last month of year 2006 and after the last day of year 2006, since the count down I have been in 2007 for few days. It seems that there is nothing can make me stay here except only three people. I dont think so that I will have a long life time but just hope to have a longer time with them as longer as possible. at that moment, when I heard she was drunk and she was in hospital, I really cannot control myself in public. I should be quick, yes, should be really quick to reach the dream as I promised. There is no such much time to waste for me and for her. At that night, as i asked for 5 years, it's almost 5 years, she doesnt have so much 5 years to past and to waste, I should be quick. I cannot be that selfish. please, wait for me.