Icannothelpbutkeepingacopyherethefollowingletter
fromamodernStoic.ThisverseinoneofAliceinChains’mosthaunting
songscapturestheessenceoftheStoicbattle:AndyetIfind
AndyetIfind
Repeatinginmyhead
IfIcan'tbemyown
I'dfeelbetterdeadTheneedtobeone’sown.One’sownman.Freefrom
outsideinfluence.Freefromtyranny.Freefromanxiety.
Fear.Unnecessarypain.Tobefr...[阅读全文]
Choose Strong
For Tim.
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(2018-04-06 18:48:12)
(2018-03-31 11:19:17)
Itwas18yearsagoandinthebasementofaBaptistchurch
whereIfirstreadthatfamousline.TheLordJesussaid
similarthings,e.g.,whoeverwantedtobethefirsthereon
earthshouldbethelastinthekingdomofheaven,andIhad
notroublefiguringoutthatHefavoredthe"meek."
Afterall,Icamefromaculturethatbelieves柔弱胜刚强.
"InherittheEarth"soundedprettygood,too,althoughit
wasnotclearho...[阅读全文]
whereIfirstreadthatfamousline.TheLordJesussaid
similarthings,e.g.,whoeverwantedtobethefirsthereon
earthshouldbethelastinthekingdomofheaven,andIhad
notroublefiguringoutthatHefavoredthe"meek."
Afterall,Icamefromaculturethatbelieves柔弱胜刚强.
"InherittheEarth"soundedprettygood,too,althoughit
wasnotclearho...[阅读全文]
(2018-03-24 17:05:12)
WhenItooktheclippertoTim'sfullheadoflushshiny
blackhairFridayevening,Ididn'thesitate.Afterall,I'd
donethissinceheeverstartedtoneedahaircut.Itmust
beover50times.Ididn'tfeelanythingdifferent. Thebladeswentsmoothlyandleftastripeofskincovered
byaperfectlycutpatchoffur.Onlythepatchseemedshort.
Forthefirsttime,Iforgottoputonaguard(guidecomb)!
Isawwhathappen...[阅读全文]
(2018-03-18 19:55:28)
Thisweekend,threethingsofpersonalhistoricalimportance
happened;-) First,Iwasabletosleepthroughthenightonmyback,on
theJiu-Jitsumat,andwithoutapillow.Iusedtosnore
whichwokemyselfupwhenItriedtosleeplikethat.In
additiontoonelessneed(thesmallpillow),thisability
meansthatIcaneffortlesslycorrectmyscreen-bound
hunchingpostureduringthedayforatleastsevenhours
atnight.Mybodyand...[阅读全文]
happened;-) First,Iwasabletosleepthroughthenightonmyback,on
theJiu-Jitsumat,andwithoutapillow.Iusedtosnore
whichwokemyselfupwhenItriedtosleeplikethat.In
additiontoonelessneed(thesmallpillow),thisability
meansthatIcaneffortlesslycorrectmyscreen-bound
hunchingpostureduringthedayforatleastsevenhours
atnight.Mybodyand...[阅读全文]
(2018-03-17 12:15:33)
Ioftenmissagoodideawhenreadingaboutitforthefirst
time.Butitwouldleaveamarkandovertime,Iwould
reflectandrevisit,oftenmorethanonce,andeventually,I
wouldgetthepoint. Onesuchideawas"Flow"asinthetitleofthebook"Flow:
thepsychologyofoptimalexperience"byProf.Mihaly
Csikszentmihalyi.PavelofStrongFirstgavethebooka
stellarreviewinhisJan2016article"TheWillTo...[阅读全文]
time.Butitwouldleaveamarkandovertime,Iwould
reflectandrevisit,oftenmorethanonce,andeventually,I
wouldgetthepoint. Onesuchideawas"Flow"asinthetitleofthebook"Flow:
thepsychologyofoptimalexperience"byProf.Mihaly
Csikszentmihalyi.PavelofStrongFirstgavethebooka
stellarreviewinhisJan2016article"TheWillTo...[阅读全文]
(2018-02-25 11:01:33)
Ivisitedthefamilygravesonthethirddayoflunar2018
withmycousin.Percustom,theywerelocatedonthe
farmlandoftheancestral(Dad'sside)village.Noimmediate
familymemberlivedthereanymore.Thepotoflandwas
allottedtoarelativewhogrewsaplingsonit.Giventhe
frenzyofdevelopmentthesedays,thenearbylandscape
changedalmosteveryyearanditwashardtosayhowmuch
longerourgraveyardcouldstaythere.T...[阅读全文]
withmycousin.Percustom,theywerelocatedonthe
farmlandoftheancestral(Dad'sside)village.Noimmediate
familymemberlivedthereanymore.Thepotoflandwas
allottedtoarelativewhogrewsaplingsonit.Giventhe
frenzyofdevelopmentthesedays,thenearbylandscape
changedalmosteveryyearanditwashardtosayhowmuch
longerourgraveyardcouldstaythere.T...[阅读全文]
(2018-02-25 10:57:24)
Theseconddayoflunar2018,Iwenttoseemyauntinthe
village.Nobusoperatedthatdayandthetaxichargedme50
Yuanforthe15kmone-waytrip.Intheafternoon,Icouldn't
findanythingtotakemebacktotown.Iknewthatcould
happenandhadabackupplanbeforethetrip. Ihatedthefussthiscausedatfarewellandbeggedher:
"Noneed,really!Don'tfeelbadandthankyouforgiving
meachance!"Iwalked,no,Imarche...[阅读全文]
village.Nobusoperatedthatdayandthetaxichargedme50
Yuanforthe15kmone-waytrip.Intheafternoon,Icouldn't
findanythingtotakemebacktotown.Iknewthatcould
happenandhadabackupplanbeforethetrip. Ihatedthefussthiscausedatfarewellandbeggedher:
"Noneed,really!Don'tfeelbadandthankyouforgiving
meachance!"Iwalked,no,Imarche...[阅读全文]
(2018-02-24 12:38:56)
IhaddinnerwithJ,myhigh-schoolchum.Wehadn'tseen
eachotherforover10yearsbutIspottedhimrightawayin
thelobby.Helostsomehairbutwasaboutthesamesizeand
height.Iwasgladhedidn'tturnpear-shape.Heobviously
hadtakengoodcareofhimself. Lastyear,Jlefthisjobforanopportunity,madeabundle,
butcouldn'tgetbacktohiscushyoldpostwherehespent
mostofhisworkinglife."Thecompany...[阅读全文]
(2018-02-24 12:03:40)
Dad'sbloodsugarlevelcamedownandhehadlivedwithout
insulinforafewmonthsbynow.Acoupleofyearsago,he
switchedfromawhite-flour-richdiettowholegrains,
vegetables,tofu,andalittlemeat.Thatdidthetrickand
savedabonafidediabetic.Daddidn'tfullyrealizewhathe
hadaccomplished:thedoctorstoldme(andhim)therewasno
turning-backoncediabetic.Heshouldhavebeenmoreproud
ofhimself--howman...[阅读全文]
insulinforafewmonthsbynow.Acoupleofyearsago,he
switchedfromawhite-flour-richdiettowholegrains,
vegetables,tofu,andalittlemeat.Thatdidthetrickand
savedabonafidediabetic.Daddidn'tfullyrealizewhathe
hadaccomplished:thedoctorstoldme(andhim)therewasno
turning-backoncediabetic.Heshouldhavebeenmoreproud
ofhimself--howman...[阅读全文]
(2018-02-10 10:15:11)
MysleepwaspoortheprevioustwonightsandI
feltlackofenergyinTuesday'sJiu-Jitsuclass.
IhadmyABCg(Apple,Beet,Celery,andginger)
juicewithsomecheeseandalmondsatsuper.
OnehourafterwardwhenIgottobedIstarted
tofeelitinthenoseandsneezedafewtimes.
Itwasanotherlow-qualitysleep. Wedmorning,Ifeltfine.Iwouldn'tsayitwas
greatbutIdidyoga,tookthecoldshower,and
didn'tfin...[阅读全文]
feltlackofenergyinTuesday'sJiu-Jitsuclass.
IhadmyABCg(Apple,Beet,Celery,andginger)
juicewithsomecheeseandalmondsatsuper.
OnehourafterwardwhenIgottobedIstarted
tofeelitinthenoseandsneezedafewtimes.
Itwasanotherlow-qualitysleep. Wedmorning,Ifeltfine.Iwouldn'tsayitwas
greatbutIdidyoga,tookthecoldshower,and
didn'tfin...[阅读全文]
