三地馒头的时刻

小R，小T和我，在我们program里被称为三头怪，因为老是混在一起，不管是严肃的工作还是歇斯底里的恶作剧，只要有其中一个人，另外两个人肯定有份。从intern一起成长起来，我们在一起相处的时间，比和各自家人在一起的时间还要多，这份难能可贵的友谊，是我在这个residency最大的收获。

昨天小R出夜班，我等着她一起去逛街，我们好久没有逛街了，而我今天又要踏上去外州面试的旅程。结果她一直忙到下午，去的时候点都关门了。我们就吃了晚饭然后开车回家。两个人都累了，小R突然放了这张CD，我的眼泪不知怎么就流下来了。

intern的时候，我们一起去芝加哥过周末，一起去蒙大拿滑雪，一起去看每一场新电影，一起度过每一个节日。去年情人节的时候，我给她们一人买了一张CD，edge of love。夏天的时候我们做完了intern，一起开车去芝加哥玩，车上就放着这张CD，听了好多好多遍。那天天气很好，车在lakeshore飞驰，白帆点点。我们对第二年的住院医生活充满着憧憬。

但是我们谁都没想到，第二年再也没有那么多时间在一起了。要做很多night float，然后各自开始准备申请fellow，找rotation, 忙着考试。铁打的营盘流水的兵，我们才认识一年多却又要为各自的将来奔波了。

时间如此飞逝，上一次听这首歌竟然已经是大半年前了。人生如此飞快，忙碌的间隙一抬头，匆匆由过去了一大段。明年夏天，我们就要分开，追随自己的生活，那些欢笑和眼泪，顷刻成为回忆。

今天早上四点就起床了，要去赶飞机面试。爸爸妈妈都起床，给我做早饭，我早已习惯了这种奔波的生活，几十分钟就搞定了行装。但是妈妈就要担心我开车，担心机场停车，担心下雪，担心衣服不够，要一样样地安慰她。心里很难过，因为连着两个面试，不能回来过来大年夜。我把他们接来就是希望一起过春节，谁知道还是不能如愿！他们在上海，没有我至少还有亲戚朋友，但是来了这里，竟然为了我要孤孤单单地过这个除夕。开车倒出车库的时候，不敢看他们朝我挥手的样子，雨雾中，我的眼睛也早已模糊。

朋友总说我写文章太过三地馒头（sentimental），在海外漂泊的我们啊，谁心中没有这样三地馒头的时刻。

[落花飘零]

恩，这个周末休息，不散地馒头了，带爸爸妈妈出去玩，呵呵。
RCT，我博克放过很多背景音乐，我实在记不起来了，我猜是马友友的大提琴？因为我那段时间一直在听Yo-Yo Ma Plays Ennio Morricone CD。你可以搜索以下看看是不是你找的。不好意思。

[yayayoyo]

上个月送走了爸爸妈妈，很理解你的感受。好好享受跟爸爸妈妈在一起的时间，好好过一个元宵节吧。

[Ruby@Cuisine]

别sentimental了，让人看了心疼。今过节，多和爸妈聊聊，自己心情也会好的。工作压力大，如果情绪上再sentimental，很容易老得啦。吃点巧克力……

[RCT]

新年好！落花，你的博客是我文学城里必去的地方，感谢你对生活和从医经历的分享。
我最近对大提琴曲有兴趣，记得在你的博客里听到过一段很优美的曲子，不知能否麻烦你告诉一下曲名和演奏者，哪里可以下载。多谢！

[punny]

落花，健康最重要哦，别硬撑。工作忙，就争分夺秒的休息，快点把那些不受欢迎的virus都赶跑。恩，上周末我也在机场被堵着呢，北方的天气真是很糟糕

[落花飘零]

谢谢大家的鼓励，面试回来马上进了ICU，所以到现在才上来回留言。面试不是很理想，就想找对象一样，人家看上的我看不上，我看得上人家又似乎有心上人了。而且北方天气不好，堵在机场若干次，catch virus若干，还要发着烧值班收病人，然后回家偷偷吃泰诺不敢让爸爸妈妈看到，怕他们担心。最难过的是错过了新年，觉得不值得，oh well.不去尝试是不会死心的。
紫砂壶，我做的是内科，你这个fellowship太厉害了，我全然不敢问津阿，呵呵，不过谢谢你啦。

[纵然平行]

I’d like to make a correction to set the record straight. The CD I got was “Celtic Woman” from Celtic Woman rather “A New Journey” which I brought it myself later because I was enthralled by the group’s music after listening. Sorry for the mess-up (-: .

BTW, Happy Chinese New Year! The year of Rat, hmm .. that doesn’t sound too good -:) Anyway, raise the glass for prosperity and peace.

[一程歌]

Good Luck!!!

[AppleFlower]

Good luck on your interviews! You're such a kind and dedicated doctor, any program would be lucky to have you. :)

[纵然平行]

Please don’t be too critical on yourself. The simple truth is that you are female, and it is one of your entitlements to clinch over rich sentiments when mood strikes. It seems to me that expressing in appropriate setting toward right person(s) , females may, in fact, entrust their emotional intelligence to the state of mind for demonstrating personal best. On the contrast, you or some of your peers might label us or complain about us as the dull, impassive and insensitive species that are born with the flaw of feeling-deficiency -:).

Years ago if I read this posting I’d have laughed about you for falling for Mindy Smith’s voice or her songs because she is one who sings the country music time to time. But, time does change “landscapes” , sometimes it could even make them beyond recognition. In Oct. 2006 Emma, my ex GF, mailed me a gift package for my 30th birthday from London. In it there were several CDs and one of books from my favorite author. Among these CDs, there were two albums from Mindy Smith (“One More Moment” and “Long Island Shores”), one from Corrs (“Home”) and other one from Celtic Women (“A New Journey”). On the birthday card she went on, asking me to listen to these CDs when I had time. Reluctantly, I did.
Since then on, one thing has become remarkable that more than ever, I feel obliged to understand and appreciate females’ emotional world better as whole in addition to their physical appearances. As a result of the process, I started enjoying music made from Chloë Agnew, Andrea Corr, Lisa Hannigan, Dolores O'Riordan, Órla Fallon, Méav Ní Mhaolchatha, Lisa Kelly, Máiréad Julie Feeney, Nesbitt, , Hayley Westenra, a New Zealand soprano with Irish heritage. As the matter of fact, I’ve started to believe that they might be the vocal artists who have more talents and trainings than many popular American Pop singers per se. So that when I jog in the darkness of frozen winter mornings, or play games on Wii, PS3 or Xbox, or particularly after a turbulence market days, I’d put on CDs that Emma gave to me and listen, letting the voices to take me to the place where summer rain falls on the grass softly, releasing aromatic notes from the earth; where morning light lifts the shade of night, bringing up a new day...

About the possibility that you may get estranged from your parents on Chinese New Year Eve please look bright side; at least you have parents with you in US at this moment. Most of us may not be as lucky as you, so to speak. However, I do hope you get back home on time with your folks.

P.S Thanks for your well-wish over my trip back to China a while ago. For two weeks I had incredible good time with my parents and grandparents except they tried to fatten me with a parade of delicious dishes -:).

[punny]

落花，给你一个big hug，理解你的三地馒头，加油！

[随意简单]

祝你旅途顺利，面试成功，早日拿到理想的offer

[memoryrong]

Good luck on your interview. And Happy Chinese New Year!

[紫砂壶]

Will you be interested in Cardiothoracic Anesthesiology Fellowship? Our Associate Program Director is a very nice guy.

[dreamcatcher123]

落花妹妹，很喜欢这首歌，一直关注你的博客，我才开始我的USMLE考试之路，你已经奔向下一个目标，继续写下去，我相信你会激励好多人。