玫瑰与枪 （十）

 

几星期前，茫茫经不住大岷旁敲侧击步步紧逼的盘问，在他来纹他的M. DOT时，毫无保留竹筒倒黄豆般的把故事都抖漏给大岷听。

大岷那张似笑非笑不正经的脸，忽然一本正经起来。

他肃穆认真语重心长一字一句的叮嘱茫茫：都说苍桑有故事的男人最有魅力，殊不知有故事的男人情感掖藏着深不见底！我肯定你是从怜香惜玉到刻骨铭心到认清事实到慢慢剥离，最后到彻底死心！何必呢。“

他愁苦的继续说叨：”我也很苍桑的呢，游泳差点被淹死，骑车差点被摔死，跑步差点被熊吃掉，你怎么就不来感觉一下我的苍桑！“

艺术的最高形式---悲剧，总是被不正经的大岷给糟踏成天桥上那些耍把戏口里的段子，让茫茫哭笑不得。

茫茫赌气地说：“就是断了八根肋骨，你也没有苍桑感，因为你的心从没碎过。“

大岷气的眉毛都竖起来了，“我的心现在就碎成八瓣了，你没听到它掉在地上破碎的声音吗？我都听到了！“

”别忽悠人了！你摸摸看，你有心吗？压根就没有心！“ 茫茫不甘示弱的回嘴道。

大岷闭嘴郁闷得不吭声，茫茫则在细细地体会大岷说的”都说苍桑有故事的男人最有魅力，殊不知有故事的男人藏着最深。“

思绪或远或近的飘乎了一会儿，忽然她惊觉：这句话说的是男人，可女人也可以是有故事的人啊。

茫茫就是那个有故事的女人，她的故事更苍桑！

然而她终还是没有遇到一个灵魂，

一个可以平等自然而平静的讲诉她的苍桑人生故事的灵魂。

带着象黎惆一样刻骨铭心终身不愈的灵魂上的伤口，象大岷一样的坚硬执着，茫茫依然独自要不停息的在人生的道路上求索。

下一程的风景一定会更宏远深沉，会更精彩！

她把"玫瑰与枪" 工作室转交给黎惆。
 

闭着双眼用指头在世界地图上随便一指，那就是她要去的诗和远方。
 

茫茫绝尘而去，
 

那辆黄色越野车不一会儿就消失在了远方。


The End

This short novel is dedicated to a young ,beautiful and talented Two-dimensional cartoonist who committed suicide for her tattoo artist boyfriend when she is only 25 years old. Her sad story deeply touched me and let me reckon the meaning of life.

Also I dedicated this story to my parents . They are my  soul mates who are keeping on nourishing my soul until the day I vanish from this world.

Dedicated this story to the great Italian composer Ennis Morrisons who passed away on July 6th, 2020.
His music makes me dream, cry, and feel connected one another. I was accompanied by his master piece " Deborah's s theme "( Once upon a time in America) when i was writing this story.

I dedicated this story to E-friend Smiling Face whose story tremendously inspired me . His true love story , excellent writing skills, and hand drawn cartoons are main character traits of 黎惆。

At last, thank you all for reading.
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