I feel there is a high chance I will discard what have been carrying on for years and change to another completely different track. All these changes have been seeded in your personality and experiences. It accumulates day by day and will explode in only one-shot.
It takes talents to experience this. That is your mind has to work to that limit to understand what I am saying here; the most dangerous thing is you visualize the goal and you know well the routes and you have the vehicle to get there. And yet you are out of control of yourself and your carriage collaspes right within the reach of it. Tragedy! The only thing that can save you out of it, believe me, is the clear, calm and focused view of your goal.
Yet you may be running the risk of loosing it and walking on the edge or your nerve everyday. Isn't it amazing how life excites you like this? And isn't it amazing how you talk to each other with the rest of the audience completely lost the track what you guys are talking about.
Curious how this thing will evolve, with a belief there is a fair authority. But make sure you are clear you will have to jump out of this picture at one point. You just got to leave it to others and move on. Yeah, that is the spirit of this life.