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快三年了
(2015-12-16 08:59:25)
我离开原公司快三年了，当初痛下决心是因为知道了没结果，他有选择的告诉，道歉也不能让我释怀。这几年间歇的联络，淡淡的，以为忘记了。可惜，可怜，淡淡的才可怕，因为一直在那里。他一句“我换了你送我的钱包”就勾起了这些。明知道我和他永远都不会走出这个灰色地带，永远不会有说个明白的一天。明白所有这一切其实何必。就是蠢吧。[阅读全文]
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Eh.
(2012-11-17 18:48:46)
Therewasnoaffection,nocare,andnointerest.Itwasallinmyhead,iguess,howsad[阅读全文]
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Awkward
(2012-08-03 21:16:43)
Itissoawkwardbetweenusnoweversincetheemailsituationhappeneddueinfgthetrip. Ikeepremindingmyselfthatitdoesnotworththeefforttrytowinhisfriendship;iamdoubtingmyselfofofferingmyfriendshiptohimifheissohasitatetoacceptit.Hebeenwining,beinginandout,hotandcold. Mightthebestistoleavehimalong,lethimdecide. Itoldhimiamhisfriendaslonfashewantsmetobe. Hehastomakeuphismind.[阅读全文]
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back from the trip
(2012-07-28 19:48:44)
Ithoughtanticipatedthetripwillbesomewhatwired...itisthefirsttimeustravelalonefor3days.Ihaddreamaboutusholdinghandsonthebeach,tellinghimhowmuchIcaredforhim,andhowmuchIwantedforhimtocareforme.Dream.
Thefirstdaywasnice,hewasverygentlemanlike.wehadgoodtimeatdinner,andheactuallycompaniedmewhilethehotelsecuritytriedtofixthedoorlock.ididnotbringbathingsuitandhedid;idon'tknowthatisthereasonsethimoff,h...[阅读全文]
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Round and around
(2012-07-19 18:19:58)
Iwaslittlesad(?)yesterdaywhenIdidnotseethecraneImadeinhisoffice,Ithoughthefinallythrowitawayduringtheremodel.Infact,hekeptit,itwasstillonhisdesk.IamgraduallylosingthegroundsinceIcaremorehowhefeelaboutmethenhedidIbeleive.HealsomentionedV,"whynotaskhimtodriveforyou"?WasheupsetaboutVgodownSwithme?!Sillyme.Whycan'tyouseeIonlylikeyou?Careaboutyou?ButwhyIcanchatwithVfortwohoursoverallkindstopic,andyouan...[阅读全文]
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Just to vent
(2012-07-03 20:04:36)
IlikedhimfromthefirstminutehesitivyofficeandtoldmeallthosemistakesImadeonthereoportwasnothing,thatwasthe3rdor4thdayhebecamemyboss.Itwasagenuinelikethough.Icannotfigureoutsincewhenourconversationturnedcasual,morefriendlikethancolleague.Heteasesmeoffenlike"Iwasthelittlesisterheneverhad".Weflirtoften,butwithcertainamountofcontrol.Webothhavefamilyandkids,wearenottrying.IthinkIfeltmyselfchange,carehimm...[阅读全文]
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Today
(2012-07-03 19:37:26)
Hewasnotin,andIrealizedafterreceivinghisautonreply. Hedidn'tmentionitwhenhebidmegodbeylastFriday. Cometothinkaboutit,heneverreallysharedthosetypeofthings...Butwhyshouldhe.InevertriedtotellhimwhatIwilldodudringmytimeoff. ButImisshim...OrdoI?Guessinggameisthetorture,andIlostbecauseIcarenow... 
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