最近很伤感， 听了好几个朋友患了癌症动手术的消息，好友 M 的 PAP 也出了问题，第二次作活检，都是年纪轻轻的移民。我跟劳工说健康和快乐永远是移民生涯的第一位 ……
Dear C,
I have been shocked and feeling down these days since I heard the result from M and you. I even talked to myself why that happened to my dearest C? Not, not, it is impossible! They must make a mistake on the biopsy result!
Many times when Richard fell into sleep, I wanted to call you. It was either late that you may sleep or it was day you might be working. Many times, I was sitting in front of the computer trying to write to you, and I found myself lose my word because I didn’t know how to deal with myself and my shock; and in stead, I was typing lymphoepithelioma again and again on the internet trying to find something related. And many times I found myself tearing when strolling with Richard in the community. I dreamt about you these nights, ORs, schools, restaurants, and parties, all the places where we talked, shared, and laughed, and I woke up in the middle of the night with cry and sigh. I have been thinking a lot of you, M, and all the time we have been together. I wish the diagnosis were not true at all!
I read your mail about Oct 12 this afternoon. Being in a daze for a while, suddenly I told myself that anxiety, scare, and tear wouldn’t do any good. We have been struggling for everything we need to survive in this beautiful country, work, education, language, culture, and so on. And we have been showing that we are strong enough to deal all of these. If we count the illness as one part of the challenge here, let’s face and fight it, BRAVELY. Holding my hand, we are together, sharing love, joy, and sadness. Let me know if I can be of any help. Wish English were my first language, wish you understand what I am talking about, and wish you understand how much I care about you.
Forgive me, C. I am so late replying this email. I am just kind of the person who is seemed to escape and hide until the last second.
I am writing all of these because I want to tell you I will be always with you. It is thanksgiving again. Thanks God, for giving me C, a beautiful and bright angel, being with my life. Have a nice long weekend, C. I’ll talk to you on phone next week.
Sending you a hug, a kiss, and lots lots of love, Meng
Mon, 1 Oct 2007 17:45:48 -0400 (EDT)
Dear Meng,
How are you?
I hope you and Richard are doing good.
Unfortunately, I am not doing very well. As I promised to you, I will let you know about my follow-up with Dr. G.
The situation is not very good at all. The needle biopsy, showed that it's a Lymphoepitelioma Parotid- gland. He said that it's a very rare disease and he has seen so far just 3 patients with something like this.
I tried to find some imformations, but because it is so rare they haven't done to many studies. It occurs mostly in Eskimos, Native-Canadians, some Asians.
Anyway, I am gonna have the surgery in 2 or max. 3 weeks and after that probably he said I will need radiation. He will do a Parotidectomy and he will take out the tumour and put like a flap under my skin.
I've told to M and she was very nice and supportive with me. It would be nice to have her by the day of the surgery.
That's all for now, but I will let you know how did it go.
Take care my friend and big hugs for Richard and of course for you too,
C
Tue, 18 Sep 2007 10:16:29 -0400 (EDT)
Dear Meng,
Thank you for thinking at me...
I did go on Friday to see Dr. G and he said that the results showed that it is a Lymph Node. It is not a tumour.
He is concerned why it is so big. So, he did 2 more biopsy to make sure that it is not a lymphoma. Scary!!!!!!!!!
I don't know what to say...I have to wait other 2 weeks for this result.
How is Richard?? Do you have more pictures?? Send me if you have some new ones.
I've heard that Joan is coming back to work. How about you? When are you coming back?
I miss working with you!
By,
C
Meng wrote:
Hi, C,
Hope my mail won't be late. But I am thinking of this these days. How was last Friday with Dr. G? How was the biopsy? Meng
Mon, 20 Aug 2007 22:27:02 -0400 (EDT)
Hi, C,
How is everything going? How is your shoulder? I hope you have got a quick recovery on it.
I am feeling down 'cause I heard that you needed a MRI for your left cheek. I remember few years ago when we worked very hard under stresses at T Hospital, you had the same thing. I hope the cheek is nothing but just something that because you work too hard on school and in OR. And in this case, I could say to you "Never work too hard, C."
Keep me posted, hope everything goes well, and a warm hug from Meng
Wed, 15 Aug 2007 07:47:06 -0700 (PDT) Bottom of Form
Hi, Meng,
Thank you for your info about occupational health and assignment.
I have not registered yet, but I probably buy the book if it is not that expensive.
I sometimes think how smart you are, doing all the courses like that. I am so proud of you and I am so lucky to have you as a friend.
For our meeting with your husband and Richard, everyone envy you having a such a cute son and nice husband. Hopefully, you have a great time with them.
I spoke to C yesterday and she is having a problem with her health. Do you remember she had something on her left cheek few years ago and was OK that time?
It seems this one got bigger and she have to do MRI and biopsy for that. I will keep in posted.
Meng, how are you? You are OK, right?
I had an abnormal result on pap test two month ago and had to biopsy, too. But the result came out I am OK(benign).
Meng, you take care and have a great time with your lovely son.
Love, M
