to be cool (said to myself in the light of N)

Hey H, I said to myself, to be cool!

Doucement et doucement......you are never in hurry in your life, you know that everything has its begining and it ends.

I met him on msn last evening, he was with a tired face, but looked calm and peaceful. But I got some problem. A new met friend wanted to visit me without invitation. first he made phone call, the I told him that I could not meet him, but he came to my building, the came to my appartment, kept knocking my door for more than 2 hours. it was really crazy.

I felt very bad later.

We tried to make our eyes talk, I tried to read his eyes language, but it was not so easy. He said something like that tu est mignon but I could not get it, I said that he was sending me a greeting......

felt a little dissappointed later because he left and I have would like to stay a little more with him, and I did not feel esay at that moment, while firstly he was on phone conversation with his friend so I waited for a while later when he finished it he wanted to go to bed, the moment I felt like needing to "stay" with him, need to say it was also very late, half past eleven o'clock. of course, I said nothing but ok wish him a good sleep, with several min late. He asked me "are you ok...." I wanted to cry.

 

Now I am thinking that not to talk with him for several days. It will be better for us, more space and more freedom, so should be a easier situation. while, on the other hand, I am afraid that we will get more and more far away from each other, that was what I really did not want, I hope that we could always stay close, forever close of each other. Sincerely.