Got a phone call from an old classmate and knew that two of my classmates commit suicide in 2000, the year I left china. I am shocked! I can not believe that the girl used to sleep in the bed next to mine was gone forever when she was only 25 years old. The other one that went with her to heaven is her husband. They both jumped off a building.
Something unexpected happens everyday. We can not pay attention to everything and help those in trouble in time. Maybe that is the way of life. Those who choose to live for the next day are those who is willing to face truth and conquer the challenge in life. To be honest, I am not a courageous person. When I am facing the difficulties or trouble, I blame myself so much. I pounch my chest and step hard on the ground. I hope that I can be smarter and work harder. I had so much confidence in dealing with relationships within my family, but not my work. But I know that relieving myself by leaving the world is not the way I choose.
Every morning on the way to work, I talk with God and pray for myself and my family. It really works! God is the guildance in my life. I believe so day by day. I want to get my Phd, and I know god will give his wisdom to me and let it shine on me and give me a fruitful day.
I hope so much that my classmates got the chance to speak with God, then their life will be totally different. But it is too late.... Seven years later after they passed away, I got the news, all I can do is to give my blessing to them and hope they feel happy eventually in heaven. Their names are Li, Jing and Gao, Chongzhe. Your lovely faces will be in my memory forever........
