I Don't Know How To Love Him

I Don't Know How To Love Him I don't know how to love him. What to do...How to move him. I've been changed... Yes...really changed. In these past few days... When I've seen myself... I seem like someone else. I don't know how to take this? I don't see why he moves me? He's a man...he's just a man. And I've had so many men before. In very many ways... He's just one more. Should I bring him down? Should I scream and shout? Should I speak of love? Let my feelings out. I never thought I'd come to this. What's it all about? Don't you think it's rather funny? I should be in this position. I'm the one who's always been... So calm...So cool...No lover's fool. Running every show. He scares me so. I never thought I'd come to this. What's it all about? Yet...if he said he loved me. I'd be lost...I'd be frightened. I couldn't cope...just couldn't cope. I'd turn my head...I'd back away. I wouldn't want to know. He scares me so. I want him so. I love him so.   ....