Orlifecrasher?廿载一梦
寿多则辱[阅读全文]
穷则思变
hmlu_2000@yahoo.com
博文
(2014-02-01 19:38:02)
(2014-01-31 16:58:49)
我失敬了。我不得不得这样的结论。有时候上帝是无能的。
我含着泪水用我的心祷告过了。
如果主正在做工，就让他继续做吧。我放手。
如果主没有做工，就是我求得太多。
主啊，实际上我求的就是三个字，为什么？为什么是我。
我不是耶稣基督，我牺牲，没有想让我自己钉在十字架。我牺牲，只是自私的为了
我自己平静的生活。
这个重担不应该交给[阅读全文]
我含着泪水用我的心祷告过了。
如果主正在做工，就让他继续做吧。我放手。
如果主没有做工，就是我求得太多。
主啊，实际上我求的就是三个字，为什么？为什么是我。
我不是耶稣基督，我牺牲，没有想让我自己钉在十字架。我牺牲，只是自私的为了
我自己平静的生活。
这个重担不应该交给[阅读全文]
(2014-01-29 16:42:11)
滑完冰，开车送女儿回家。
我说LUNCHBOX里面有包子，饼干和桔子汁，你可以拿出来吃。
她说，不饿。
我说，我有点饿了，你可以饼干给我，你吃包子。
她说，我不饿，你把包子也吃了吧，我回家就对妈妈说我吃了三个包子。反正家里
还有好多包子呢。
我说，你不能对妈妈撒谎。这样吧，你吃一个，给我留两个。
她于是自己吃了一个，把剩下的两个包子[阅读全文]
我说LUNCHBOX里面有包子，饼干和桔子汁，你可以拿出来吃。
她说，不饿。
我说，我有点饿了，你可以饼干给我，你吃包子。
她说，我不饿，你把包子也吃了吧，我回家就对妈妈说我吃了三个包子。反正家里
还有好多包子呢。
我说，你不能对妈妈撒谎。这样吧，你吃一个，给我留两个。
她于是自己吃了一个，把剩下的两个包子[阅读全文]
(2014-01-27 16:32:22)
Iamabletoseeyoursmileeverytimemycomputerison.
Iknowitisapicturetakenwhenyouwere5or6.Imissthetime.
Therewasnonepushingyoudoinganything,yellingatyou.
Yourparentsdidnotfightinfrontofyou.
Howinnocentandnaiveyoursmilewasbythen,likefreshairinaspringmorning.
Doyoustillsmilelikethisnow?
Mydaughter,IwillneverwipeouttheguiltyfeelingfrommymindforwhatIdidtoyou.
Ihopeyearsfromnowwhe...[阅读全文]
Iknowitisapicturetakenwhenyouwere5or6.Imissthetime.
Therewasnonepushingyoudoinganything,yellingatyou.
Yourparentsdidnotfightinfrontofyou.
Howinnocentandnaiveyoursmilewasbythen,likefreshairinaspringmorning.
Doyoustillsmilelikethisnow?
Mydaughter,IwillneverwipeouttheguiltyfeelingfrommymindforwhatIdidtoyou.
Ihopeyearsfromnowwhe...[阅读全文]
(2014-01-25 18:16:34)
AlthoughIdon'tseeyou;Idon'ttalktoyou,daughterIdonotforgetyou.
Idrivebyyourwindoweveryday.
Iprayeverysecondthatyoudon'ynotcry.
EverytimeIthinkaboutyou,Iwonderswhatyouaredoing.
[阅读全文]
Idrivebyyourwindoweveryday.
Iprayeverysecondthatyoudon'ynotcry.
EverytimeIthinkaboutyou,Iwonderswhatyouaredoing.
[阅读全文]
(2014-01-23 18:51:40)
Howwasyourdaywithoutschool?TheonlythingIcoulddowastowishyouthebest.
Itisverycold.
Doyoustillrememberthattheheaterinmycardidnotworklasttimeyousatinmycar?Ipouredcollantintheradiator,andhalfbottleofradiatorsealer.
Lookstheheaterisworkingnow.ToughnotasefficientlyasIthought.Idon'tknowifitisbecausetheweatheristoocold.
Thereisnoschooltomorrow.Idon'tknowwhereyouwillbe.IamthinkingIwillgotos...[阅读全文]
Itisverycold.
Doyoustillrememberthattheheaterinmycardidnotworklasttimeyousatinmycar?Ipouredcollantintheradiator,andhalfbottleofradiatorsealer.
Lookstheheaterisworkingnow.ToughnotasefficientlyasIthought.Idon'tknowifitisbecausetheweatheristoocold.
Thereisnoschooltomorrow.Idon'tknowwhereyouwillbe.IamthinkingIwillgotos...[阅读全文]
(2014-01-22 19:20:23)
Youhandledtheburdenandunfairnessonyoushouldersowell.IcouldnotimagehowIwouldhandleifIwereatyourage.
Youjustwipeditoutoffyoufaceasifnothinghappened.
DoyouknowthatIwouldfeelbetterifyoutoldmethatyouwerehurt?
Idrovebyyourwindowyesterdayhopingtoseethelightfromit.Itwasbedtime,butitwasdark.
EverytimeIthinkaboutyou,Ihopeyouaresmiling.
EverytimeIthinkaboutyou,theimageofyoucryingcomestomy...[阅读全文]
Youjustwipeditoutoffyoufaceasifnothinghappened.
DoyouknowthatIwouldfeelbetterifyoutoldmethatyouwerehurt?
Idrovebyyourwindowyesterdayhopingtoseethelightfromit.Itwasbedtime,butitwasdark.
EverytimeIthinkaboutyou,Ihopeyouaresmiling.
EverytimeIthinkaboutyou,theimageofyoucryingcomestomy...[阅读全文]
(2014-01-20 14:31:42)
Cametoworkonaholiday.Willgotogymafterwork.Andplanningtohaveasubway.
Don'tforgettobuyaironatWalmartorTarget.Tomorrowisnotcasualdressdaysoyouahvetoirontheshirt.
Itisnotaperfectbirthday.Butmymindismuchcalmerthandoingotherthings.
Daughter,Imissyou.SorryIcannottellyouthisismybirthday.Ibelievenonewilltellyoueither.
Icanimageyouwouldaskmealotofquestionsaboutmybirthday.
[阅读全文]
Don'tforgettobuyaironatWalmartorTarget.Tomorrowisnotcasualdressdaysoyouahvetoirontheshirt.
Itisnotaperfectbirthday.Butmymindismuchcalmerthandoingotherthings.
Daughter,Imissyou.SorryIcannottellyouthisismybirthday.Ibelievenonewilltellyoueither.
Icanimageyouwouldaskmealotofquestionsaboutmybirthday.
[阅读全文]
(2013-11-28 12:53:38)
(2013-11-20 22:00:06)
