誰，不是天安門母親？III（漢譯英）

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十五年過去了，誰看得見這個傷口？
As fifteen years passed, who were be able to see the wound?
國際看得見。
International community saw.
一九九四年，我還在海德堡大學漢學系任教。突然發現那一年的研究生數目驟減，幾乎開不成課。我們很納悶，幾經推敲，找出了原因：九四年進研究所的，大致是一九八九、九○年間進大學的人。天安門發生屠殺後，那一年漢學系幾乎收不到學生。對中國的失望和厭棄，使得歐洲學生拒絕漢學。
In 1994, I was a teacher in the department of Sinology at the University of Heidelberg. In that year, the number of graduate student enrollments dropped to so low that there was almost no enough student body for classes. We felt puzzled. After weighing a few factors, we figured it out: the incoming graduate student in 1994 most probably started college in 1989 or 1990. After the Tiananmen massacre, the department of Sinology nearly failed to enroll any students. The disappointment and resentment to China turned European students away from Sinology.

十五年來，歐洲人忘了「六四」嗎？中國的市場，以及藉由市場所展現的國力「崛起」，贏得了國際的尊敬嗎？中國的電視鏡頭跟著領導人出訪，讓人民看見，譬如說，法國總統鋪排的紅地毯禮遇，但是鏡頭刪掉的，是法國文化界、知識界、民間團體對中國人權的抨擊。各國政府紛紛來到中國競爭市場，但是尊敬？對不起，沒有人會尊敬市場的；這個世界再怎麼現實再怎麼野蠻，最終贏得國際尊敬的，不是市場或武力，而仍是一個國家文明和道德的力量。今天美國失去好大一部分世人的尊敬，不是由於它的國力減弱，而是由於虐囚事件暴露之後它所喪失的道德立場。中國要得到泱泱大國應得的尊敬，不在於市場之大，國土之廣，人口之多，而在於它道德擔當的有無。
In the past 15 years, have Europeans forgotten “June 4th”? Have China's market, and the "rise" of power because of such a market, won respect over the world? Accompanying the leaders’ overseas trips, the Chinese television cameras let the people see, for example, their leaders receive red-carpet treatment from French president, but the scenes of outcry at China's human rights from the French cultural, intellectual, civilian groups were deleted. All the governments have come to China to compete for the market share, but respect? Sorry, no one will respect the market; Not matter how practical and how brutal the world seems to be, the key to win respect from international community is still the power of one nation’s civilization and moral values, not market or military power. These days the United States lost respect from the great portion of the people over the world. It’s not because the fall of its strength; instead, it is because of its moral stance after the exposure of the prisoner abuse incident. If China wants to win the respect deserved to a great country, the key is not the size of her market, territory or population, but rather its moral responsibility.

「六四」使中國的道德破產。
"June 4th" led to China's moral bankruptcy.
沒有忘記這個傷口的，還有臺灣人，還有香港人。
Among the ones who don’t forge the wound are people in Taiwan, as well as Hong Kong.

中共的領導人一定問過自己：為什麼用「血濃於水」的「民族大義」跟臺灣人講不通？為什麼對香港釋出了大量的利益，香港人仍舊若即若離？領導人願不願意面對這樣的答案：臺灣人抗拒，香港人掙扎，和「六四」的道德破產是緊密相關的。
The Chinese Communist leaders must have asked themselves: Why doesn’t the “national fundamental doctrine” of "blood is thicker than water" allure the people in Taiwan? Why do Hong Kong people remain aloof after receiving tremendous favors? Are the leaders willing to face this: the resistance of people in Taiwan, and the struggle from the people in Hong Kong are tightly related to the moral bankruptcy after “June 4th”.

對於香港人而言，今天可以釋出的利益，是明天可以收回的威脅。二十三條帶來恐慌，難道和「六四」的血腥記憶無關？對於臺灣人而言，聽一個對自己人民開槍的政權大談「民族大義」、「血濃於水」，除了恐懼和不信任之外，還可能有其他的感覺嗎？
For the people in Hong Kong, the favors granted today can be the threat of recalling in tomorrow. Doesn’t the panic caused the 23 clauses have nothing to do with the bloody memories of “June 4th”? To the people in Taiwan, what other feeling can they have-- except fears and distrust, while listening to a regime who fire at its own people talk about the “national fundamental doctrine” of "blood is thicker than water".

「六四」屠殺代表權力的野蠻，理性的喪失，人性的沉淪，只要一天不平反，它就一天刻在北京政府的額頭上。帶著這樣的「黥面」，你如何以文明的姿態去和臺灣人或香港人談「統一」、談「愛國」？簡單地說，你，如何讓人相信？這個沉重包袱，對於力求改革的新領導人或許不公平，但是政治責任本來就是「概括承受」的，不是嗎？
"June 4th" massacre represents the power of brutality, the loss of sensibility, and the fall of humanity. As long as it is not redressed, it is carved on government's forehead. Wearing such a political Scarlett letter tattooed on the face, how can you talk about “reunification” and “patriotic”? Simply put, how can you win trust from people? It may not be fair for the new reform-oriented leaders, but the political responsibility requires “all-inclusive acceptance”, doesn’t it?




如果有人以為「六四」僅只是那一小撮流亡海外「不成氣候」的民叻肿拥氖拢?P係不大，那就真看錯了。「六四」平反不平反是一個良心的測謊器、道德的試金石，更是兩岸政治和解路上一塊怵目的絆腳石。北京政府如何對待「六四」，意味著它是走向民主自由還是繼續極權統治，也關鍵地影響臺灣人對中國的態度。馬英九在兩年前紀念「六四」的文章中有一句話：「『六四事件』必須平反，這必將是大陸民主化與兩岸政治統合成敗的重要指標。」對於許多臺灣人來說，兩岸的對峙，民進黨不是問題所在，台獨不是問題所在，真正核心的癥結──北京領導人不可能不清楚──是中國本身的民主化進程，而「六四」，是一個人們每天看著、無時暫忘的指標啊。
If people think that "June 4th" is that only a cause for the handful exile, "good-for-nothing" pro-democracy elements, and it doesn’t matter, they are really wrong. Whether or not to redress “June 4th” is a polygraph to the conscience, a touchstone to the morality. Moreover, it is a road block to the political reconciliation across Taiwan Straits. How Beijing government handles “June 4th” demonstrates its choice between freedom, democracy and totalitarian rule. It influences the Taiwan people's attitude towards China. Two years ago, in his memorial statement dedicated to “June 4th”, Mr. Ma Ying-Jeou had a comment: “’June 4th’ must be redressed. This must be an important indicator of the success of democratization in the mainland, and the political integration across Taiwan Strait.” For many people in Taiwan, the problem of cross-Strait standoff is not DDP, not pro-independence in Taiwan. The real core of the problem, which the leaders in Beijing are fully aware of, is the progress of is the process of democratization in China itself. As a result, “June 4th” is an unforgettable daily indicator for the people.

遮掩傷口所引起的最後的全身敗壞，我們是目睹過的。二二八的流血事件被國民黨遮蓋了四十年。四十年中，家破人亡的痛苦無處申訴，流亡海外的委屈無法紓解，仇恨因為掩藏而更加深化；四十年後，國民黨固然因而失去了政權，人民也被一種積累的苦大仇深所撕裂、所折磨。
We had witnessed the systemic corruption of health caused by the attempt to covering up the wound. The bloody incident of February 28th was concealed by the KMT for 40 years. During the four decades, the victim families have no places to express their grievance; the exiles have no relief for their sufferings; hatred was intensified because of intentional cover-up; the forty years later, while the KMT thus lost power, the people was tortured, and torn apart by the accumulated hatred and suffering.

「六四」敞開的傷口已經被掩蓋了十五年；是搶時間儘快把蓋子打開，讓它在溫柔中癒合？還是繼續掩蓋，讓它在緘默中潰爛？

The open wound of “June 4th” has been covered up for 15 years. Is there a race against time to open the lid, and heal it with tender? Or should it be covered continuously, and fester in silence?