I owned 30 apartment units, two restaurants, a large, 10-room home with pool, three cars, a motor home, land in three states and two countries, gold and silver coins, gun and music collections, investments, and the list goes on.
For more than 20 years I worked for NASA as an engineer. I was a rocket scientist.
I considered myself to be pretty “religious” and “righteous.” I was raised in a large denomination and went to church every week. I believed I was doing what God wanted me to do.
If I sinned, all I had to do was ask God to forgive me, and then I could go and do it all over and over again.
I found that all of my decisions, no matter how small or large, were concerned with how much money I would make or how much it would cost me. I worked three jobs and was completing my master’s degree in business.
Needless to say, my family suffered; I was never home. My life was so full of stress that I searched for companionship outside of marriage.
My Soul Was Dead
While I thought I was being blessed by God, I now see that it was all a temptation from the devil. Everything that I truly valued (my wife, children, health and happiness), were lost. My soul was dead. My only concern was what people might think, not what God would think. I was drinking up to four six-packs a day while enticing waitresses with money.
When I went through a divorce, it prompted bankruptcy. I was considering suicide because I had lost all of my material wealth. The people who were my friends when I had money didn’t come around anymore, but many of them were quick to laugh at my failures.
One evening while I was drinking, smoking and watching TV, a stranger came to my house. He was from a local church and wanted to talk about God and the Bible. I had never read the Bible before, at least not for its teachings on life, both the present life and eternal life.
I offered him a beer (which wasn’t too smart) and he started to share the Word of God with me.
A New Kind of Peace
As I began to believe that Jesus loved me so much that he died for me, I realized I had never felt this kind of peace before.
My sins put him on the cross, and he loved me so much that he had to show me his love.
I finally realized that I was now a better person without all those worldly things. I came into this world with nothing and I will leave with nothing.
I can truly say that I am born again and Jesus is Lord of my life. Now, I work for an employer who is bigger than NASA, JPL and the United States Government put together. My mission is to collect souls for Christ and my real purpose in life is to glorify God in everything.
Source : http://christianity.about.com/od/depressionandsuicide/a/rocketscientist.htm
