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心情日记 - 失眠 (5/8/12)

(2012-05-10 09:35:34) 下一个

Out of the blue, insomnia strikes me again. When I had it two years ago, it lasted so long that I eventually fell into depression, and had to seek medical attention. All the doctors invariably asked me the same question like “Has anything happened in your life recently?” It seems that you have to have a reason to be insomniac. One time a person made a comment about insomniac, and said that he has a clear conscience during daytime, so has no problem falling into sleep during night time, which really made me mad. Last time, I really did not have anything that could trigger insomnia, such as marriage problem, job stress, health problem, or death of a family member or friend.  This time, I am in the best mood ever and ready to spend my summer time on traveling, reading, and other leisure activities.

I fell into depression last time, because I did not know this condition well, and thought that something was wrong with my mental state, blaming myself and feeling guilty, and all. But I know better now. It could be genetic, physiological, psychological, or a combination of things, somehow I just can’t shut off my mind and fall asleep. So if my insomnia does not go away in a few days, I will definitely go to see my doctor.  

I remember Yan Geling (严歌岭), a Chinese author who suffers from insomnia, once said in her interview: what you are given (by God?) is a package, and you can’t pick and choose, but only accept what you are given (something like this, and I can’t remember her exact words).  Now I am thinking the same way, and I am determined to deal with it the best way I know how. At the present time, I am going to stop my mental activities for a while and increase my physical activities, such as exercising, doing household chores, cooking, window-shopping, et al.

 

 

 

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NewVoice 回复 悄悄话 回复非文学青年的评论:

Thanks for the concern, sis. I don't know what causes it, but it happened before. Maybe it is just my hormones, and hopefully it will go away.

Just like you said, I also found that writing is very therapeutic. So now I always wrote down what troubles me most and felt much better afterwards.

Sis, have a good start in your new job and Happy Mother's Day!
非文学青年 回复 悄悄话 Sorry to hear that, Sis! I remember seeing people in movies that have insomnia. It's not fun. I wish I can be of help. Was it because the tea you drank was too strong? I couldn't sleep well after coffee/strong tea, but caffeine makes me write better.

What if you try jogging, outdoors not in the gym? or swimming?
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