My poor mom is in hospital emergency room since Dec 31, 2007 because of kidney failure, heart problem lung problem. She had Parkinson’s disease(帕金森神经机能障碍综合症) for 10 years. Doctor said it might be caused by this disease. It has not gotten any better yet. I decide to go back to see her as soon as possible, just in case bad thing happens to her. 

I suddenly fells I am really middle age woman now, there are elder parents on my top, there is kid underneath.

You have to be responsible for both of them. It is special hard for us who live far away from each other. 

It is so hard to decide which day to fly back. I have maximum a few weeks and I have to come back for work. I am afraid of leaving too late to see my mom and I am afraid of my flying back when situation is still bad. 

I am praying to God and listening to my heart. I make the decision today and book air ticket today and fly back next Tuesday. 

God, please help my poor mom and drag her away from the life danger. I do not want her suffer too much from the pain, please alleviate the sufferings of my poor mom.