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繁星满天,灰尘遍地

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《星球大战》光明和黑暗势力的战争,惊天动地,震撼人心。后续和前述,一集又一集,几十年来,积聚了粉丝无数。英雄和美女角色个性分明,几多演员借此电影系列成名,星光灿烂。

 

网络时代,粉丝们在社交媒体聚集,形成粉丝团Fandom。科幻故事系列,《星球大战》粉丝团以男性为主。有些粉丝痴迷男性英雄角色和Princess  Leia之类的高贵淑女,但不肯接受宇宙中出身社会底层的坚强女人。

 

《星球大战:原力觉醒》的主角Rey是个拾破烂的女孩。扮演这角色的女演员Daisy Ridley被粉丝们疯狂攻击,最后不得不关闭她的Instagram账号。

近来种族主义抬头,《星》粉团找到了新的打击目标:亚裔女人。越南裔演员Kelly Marie Tran在《星球大战:最后的绝地武士》扮演一个维修技工Rose Tico,戏份很重的配角。去年底电影上映没几天,就有人在星球迷百科网Wookiepedia上把这角色改名,用对华人种族歧视的字眼。随后又在社交媒体上攻击这个演员和角色,肆意宣泄愤恨和仇视。今年六月,忍无可忍的Kelly Marie删掉了全部Instagram帖。

 

终究邪不加正,粉丝和媒体开始发声谴责种族主义和男权对亚裔女性的网络凌霸。今天夏天的Comic con年会上,Rose Tico粉丝们集会Rally支持这女演员。

今天Tran姑娘在《纽约时报》发文,抗拒被网络暴力边缘化。

 

Kelly Marie Tran: I Won’t Be Marginalized by Online Harassment

 

她控诉网霸对她所造成的伤害。她解释说关网是因为大量的恶意攻击对她有“洗脑”作用,使她失去自信。这种“洗脑”不仅是网络效应,更是社会上各种偏见和势力在她成长过程中的影响。今天她开始反击,从正名开始,坚持自我意识,一个亚裔女子在多元社会中的self identify和平等地位。

 

你们自己看吧,一个亚裔姑娘的心声,坚定勇敢。她在向一个不平等的社会挑战!

 

It wasn’t their words, it’s that I started to believe them.

Their words seemed to confirm what growing up as a woman and a person of color already taught me: that I belonged in margins and spaces, valid only as a minor character in their lives and stories

And those words awakened something deep inside me — a feeling I thought I had grown out of. The same feeling I had when at 9, I stopped speaking Vietnamese altogether because I was tired of hearing other kids mock me. Or at 17, when at dinner with my white boyfriend and his family, I ordered a meal in perfect English, to the surprise of the waitress, who exclaimed, “Wow, it’s so cute that you have an exchange student!”

Their words reinforced a narrative I had heard my whole life: that I was “other,” that I didn’t belong, that I wasn’t good enough, simply because I wasn’t like them. And that feeling, I realize now, was, and is, shame, a shame for the things that made me different, a shame for the culture from which I came from. And to me, the most disappointing thing was that I felt it at all.

Because the same society that taught some people they were heroes, saviors, inheritors of the Manifest Destiny ideal, taught me I existed only in the background of their stories, doing their nails, diagnosing their illnesses, supporting their love interests — and perhaps the most damaging — waiting for them to rescue me.

And for a long time, I believed them.

I believed those words, those stories, carefully crafted by a society that was built to uphold the power of one type of person — one sex, one skin tone, one existence.

It reinforced within me rules that were written before I was born, rules that made my parents deem it necessary to abandon their real names and adopt American ones — Tony and Kay — so it was easier for others to pronounce, a literal erasure of culture that still has me aching to the core.

And as much as I hate to admit it, I started blaming myself. I thought, “Oh, maybe if I was thinner” or “Maybe if I grow out my hair” and, worst of all, “Maybe if I wasn’t Asian.” For months, I went down a spiral of self-hate, into the darkest recesses of my mind, places where I tore myself apart, where I put their words above my own self-worth.

And it was then that I realized I had been lied to.

I had been brainwashed into believing that my existence was limited to the boundaries of another person’s approval. I had been tricked into thinking that my body was not my own, that I was beautiful only if someone else believed it, regardless of my own opinion. I had been told and retold this by everyone: by the media, by Hollywood, by companies that profited from my insecurities, manipulating me so that I would buy their clothes, their makeup, their shoes, in order to fill a void that was perpetuated by them in the first place.

Yes, I have been lied to. We all have.

And it was in this realization that I felt a different shame — not a shame for who I was, but a shame for the world I grew up in. And a shame for how that world treats anyone who is different.

I am not the first person to have grown up this way. This is what it is to grow up as a person of color in a white-dominated world. This is what it is to be a woman in a society that has taught its daughters that we are worthy of love only if we are deemed attractive by its sons. This is the world I grew up in, but not the world I want to leave behind.

I want to live in a world where children of color don’t spend their entire adolescence wishing to be white. I want to live in a world where women are not subjected to scrutiny for their appearance, or their actions, or their general existence. I want to live in a world where people of all races, religions, socioeconomic classes, sexual orientations, gender identities and abilities are seen as what they have always been: human beings.

This is the world I want to live in. And this is the world that I will continue to work toward.

These are the thoughts that run through my head every time I pick up a script or a screenplay or a book. I know the opportunity given to me is rare. I know that I now belong to a small group of privileged people who get to tell stories for a living, stories that are heard and seen and digested by a world that for so long has tasted only one thing. I know how important that is. And I am not giving up.

You might know me as Kelly.

I am the first woman of color to have a leading role in a “Star Wars” movie.

I am the first Asian woman to appear on the cover of Vanity Fair.

My real name is Loan. And I am just getting started.

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莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 'LinMu' 的评论 : 诗人好。《星》曾经是最有创意的科幻片,越来越没新意了。最近Marvel动漫系列改编的神化故事更吸引人。
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 'zhiyan' 的评论 : 谢谢子燕!
LinMu 回复 悄悄话 永远的经典。
zhiyan 回复 悄悄话 支持莲子!写的好极了。
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 'yy56' 的评论 : 反击!
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '彩烟游士' 的评论 : 很精彩的科幻系列,没想到竟有如此可恶的星粉。很气愤!
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '山韭菜' 的评论 : 谢谢山韭菜鼓励支持!周末快乐!
yy56 回复 悄悄话 是的,要反对种族歧视!!!
彩烟游士 回复 悄悄话 莲子好文!是的,种族主义是根深蒂固的偏见和仇恨,要反击!
山韭菜 回复 悄悄话 这篇文章铿锵有力,读来令人为之动容!感谢莲盆籽的分享,问好,祝周末愉快!
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '喜清静' 的评论 : 几分无奈,更多是期望。
喜清静 回复 悄悄话 好喜欢你起的title,繁星满天,灰尘遍地 。太有哲理了。
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '菲儿天地' 的评论 : :)
菲儿天地 回复 悄悄话 谢谢分享。
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '噢颜颜' 的评论 : 理想(空想)和现实,唉.
看前一帖,如果有空. 那首赞歌你会喜欢的.
常去你院里,悄悄的;)
祝夏安!
噢颜颜 回复 悄悄话 这边今天风雨,我和猫儿都呆在室内迷糊,过来看看你。
只看题目和照片,喜欢,尤其是题目和最后一张照片。
祝夏安
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '雪风万里' 的评论 : 黑的白的,左的右的,全晕了。这妞儿很可爱,may the force be with her!
雪风万里 回复 悄悄话 星战的反派帝国,第一秩序倒是挺白的.右派们加入Darkside就好了
莲盆籽 回复 悄悄话 回复 '亚特兰蒂斯' 的评论 : 这些出色的亚裔是我们华二代的榜样,要支持。让主流社会多看到多报道正面形象。
亚特兰蒂斯 回复 悄悄话 攻击华裔的苗头要反击,坚决的
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