If Only
“If Only” is a romantic love story happening in London, UK, between an American girl Samantha and a British boy Ian. Interestingly, the movie demonstrates two scenarios which touches and teaches people what love is.
In scenario 1, Ian seemed not in love with Samantha though he claimed he did. For example, he forgot her graduate concert, bought her flowers after being reminded, behaved impatiently in front of her favorite student. He refused to get on the cab Samantha was taking after a huge fight with her. In the end, he witnessed the death of Samantha in the car accident.
Scenario 1 turned out to be Ian’s dream. He realized he has been taking for granted for her love. So Ian intended to show his affection to Samantha in a tangible way in scenario 2. He took Samantha to his hometown and told her his family and childhood. He helped Samantha to get rid of the fear of riding the big roller coaster above the Thames River. He encouraged Samantha to play their song in her graduate concert. In the end, when a coming car hit the cab they were taking, he sacrificed himself to save the life of his beloved. Although Ian died, his love supported Samantha to live her life with confidence and courage.
I haven’t watched romantic movies for a long while for I am becoming losing the interest in this kind while I am aging. Though I saw it for fun on weekend, still it taught me something. People usually can do a better job when being given the second opportunity for we are constantly in a process of making decisions which we can’t predict the consequences. For example, I could have held an American degree now rather than just getting into a program. I could be more confident if I had have trained my oral English a little earlier, and as a result, I could have stronger interpersonal/communication skills now. However, we can’t live our lives as described in the movie. Life doesn’t give us the second chance. So wasting time to cry for the spilled milk is useless. Why don’t simply move forward. Admittedly, wisdom comes with experience. And the experience is highly dependent on how much, when and what people have been through. Back to the movie, if Ian never had the nightmare, he could have not been aware his ignorance/carelessness. This is the process of learning, in a hard way though. We all do.
I am so out of date. :-)
席慕蓉《中年的心情》 :))
Who is that very romantic poet?
I feel I am aging everyday:-))
---ZT
今夜，在我的灯下，我终于感觉到一种中年的心情了。
这是 - 种既复杂却又单纯，既悲伤却又欢喜，既无奈却又无怨的心情。
这是一种我一直不会完全知道的心情。
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十几年的生活，使我有了不同，我已经知道，世间的美是无限的，而终我一生，我所能得到的却只是有限中的有限，就只有那么一点点而已。因此，既然是这样，为什么不能好好地来享受我眼前所能见到的这 - 点有限的美呢？
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在人生的长路上，总会遇到分歧的一点，无论我选择了那一个方向，总是会有一个方向与我相背，使我后悔。
此刻，在我置身的这条路上，和风丽日，满眼苍翠，而我相信，我当初若是选择了另外一个方向，也必然会有同样的阳光，同样的鸟语花香。只是，就因为在那一个分歧点上，我只能选择一条被安排好的路，所以，越走越远以后，每次回顾，就都会有一种其名的怅惆。在我心里，那条我没能走上的小径就每次都在那里，在模糊的颜色里，向我展露着一种模糊的忧伤。
然而，中年的心情，是由不得我来随意后悔的啊！
于是，我不断地充实自己，锻炼自己，告诉自己：要了解世间美丽与珍奇的无限，要安静，要知足，要从容，要不后悔我所有的抉择，所有的分离和割舍。
因此，对现在的时刻就越发地珍惜起来。我想，所有被我匆忙地抛在后面的日子，对于它们，我是再也无能为力了。可是，对那些即将要来临的，对眼前的这一个时刻，我还来得及把握，还可以用我的全心与全力来等待、企盼与经营。
我想，无论如何，在往后的日子里，对所有被我珍惜的那里事物，我都要以一种从容与认真的态度去对待。
我原来以为，只要认真地琢磨，我可以把中年的时光琢磨成一块晶莹剔透的玉，只要我肯努力，生活就可以变得极为光洁、纯净、没有丝毫的瑕疵。
可是，我却不知道，生命里到处都铺展着如迷般的轨道，就算是到了中年，有些事情仍然是我无法探索也无法明白更无法控制的了。
因此，我愕然发现，人类的努力原来也是有限的。理想依旧存在，只是在每一个画夜的反复里，会发生很多细小琐碎的错误，将我与我的理想慢慢隔开。回头望过去，生命里所有的记忆都只能变成一幅褪色的画，而只有我自己才知道，在我心里，曾经是那样鲜明的颜色啊！
面对着这样的一种结果，我在悲伤之中又隐隐有着欢喜，喜欢臣服于自己的命运，喜欢时光与浪潮对生命的冲洗。
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Never too later to learn or change. thanks for being so supportive.