I told myself I've to write dairy no matter how blue I feel everyday. This is a way to cheer me up little by little.

I'm not good at focusing for a long time but I still can focus for mintues or a hour. That's not too bad for me.

OK. Starting from now on, focus half hour by half hour, and I believe finally I will make myself feel better some day. Yeah, that's the spirit! Don't cry!